Anxiety

[Bahamamama242]

I've been taking benzos off and on from November I really want to stop but I already convinced myself that I would definitely die without them or that I'll have a ton of seizures then eventually die.. it's scary.. it's been Ativan 2mg and I usually break it into four and take every day or every other day. I really want to cut this out even though it helps so much with agonizing anxiety pains. What is the most safe way?

[Paxiled]

Do you have a psychiatrist?  These need to be tapered off of at a pace that suits you, not some preordained schedule the doc uses for everyone.  If it goes easily, you're done.  If it has some problems, you slow down and deal with them.  To do it the best way, though, you do need a psychiatrist who respects that you're not anyone else and respects the drugs.  But the question I'd pose to myself is, if you tried therapy several times without help, if you tried going without, if you've exhausted everything else that might help, why stop at all?  You're already addicted, so the bad part is done.  I wouldn't quit until I believed I'd solved the original problem or found a better solution in a more benign medication or through natural medicine or something.  Perhaps a half-way measure for now would be to taper down to where you only take it as needed, not every day.  That makes it less hard on you and easier to stop taking down the road.  But if quitting is your decision, again, the slow taper is the best way out there.