Hiv anxiety

[fresh87]

its been 1 year and 3 months since my last exposer,and i still have symptoms, on oct 2008 i was messin with this girl we didnt have sex but we did alot of kissing,she went down on me,and there was frottage involve mind you im not sercum sized and i didnt have a condom ,but i cant remember if there was fluids or not but we only did it for 2 mins,4 weeks later i started gettin weird symptoms like white tongue,red throat,dry cough,upset stomach and gas,etc. so I took a 6 week hiv test and it was negative,i stillhad someof the symptoms,like on and off sore throat and upset stomach,to make it short i took a 5 1/2 month test post exposer and i was negative,and then i took a 6 1/2 month test post exposer,as soon as i got hometakin the test i noticed on the left and on the rightside of my leg that i was losing hair,i also could feel swollen lymph nodes on parts of my body but they werent visible and they werent shotty at all.



On july of 2009 i started getting these rashes that show up and the go away with in 5 to 10 min sometimes they itch sometimes they dont,but most of the time they do,and in aug i started getting these red spots that turn brown all over my back and on my upper arm butididnt pay it no mind i was only concerned wit the rashes,so on sept i went to the doc and i told him about my rashes and he said he couldnt tell what the cause was cause they wernt present at the time,and then itold him about the lymph nodes and felt them on my groin and said he could feel em but they werent shotty,so there was nothing to worried about,and said i didnt have hiv cause i tested at 6months and that was conclusive,so instead of gettn a hiv test i had gotten a cbc auto test and everything came back normal.


Now its jan 2010 and im scared that the brown spots,rashes,and swollen lymph nodes are due to hiv,and now im concerned about herpes and i havent had a out break but thats the only std i havent got tested for and im nervous that it could of delayed me to serconvert,my anxiety is threw the roof,people tell me to stop worrying but i cant,and im so scared to get tested now,other than that im fine,i kno my test at  6 1/2 months should be definitive,but its hard to think that when you have all these symptoms going on,i dont know,all i can say its been a crazy year son lol.

[RubyWitch]

At this point I would suggest some mental health therapy to deal with your inability to accept the FACT that you are HIV-
That you are apparently still having problems with rashes, swollen lymph nodes, sore throats, etc., those need to be evaluated by your doctor and probably a good dermatologist. You've been told by your doctor that they have nothing to do with HIV.
You DO need to get tested for herpes.............if you DO have it, your partners need to be protected from contracting it!
The fear of not knowing is causing you tremendous anxiety. You had the courage to test for HIV twice.............now find the courage to get tested for herpes. I am far from being an expert on HIV, but I don't believe the herpes would have caused a delay in seroconversion. But there is only ONE way you're going to know for sure and you know what you have to do.
Peace
Greenlydia