wont go for help!?!

[Aliyas]

I suffer really badly with anxiety! its all down to my shyness! ive been like this ever since i was little not making friends! now its got worse i have panic attacks alot just about the pathetic things (even passed out from one)! its not just about the making friends now its about what people will think of me, me looking bad! I use to get bullied alot at school (when i say bullied i mean picked on called names) and then i got stared at on my first full time job! ( i have alopecia areata too, its not as bad now it comes and goes), now i have a part time job, been with that job for 4 years now and h8 it! but im stuck there! i dont want to go through making new friends again! i break out in a horrible sweat go dizzy and feel sick! ive tried to go for help through my doctor but ive bottled the next stage of it! actually seeing someone about why i feel like i do! i no what they will do or say! they will gradually make me overcome my fear by facing them fears! by end of that i will prop have no hair! i dont no how else to get help im always so negative! any one have any ideas what i can do to get help?

[silverberg]

GO GET HELP, does not sound like you have always been a neg. person, but when ever you get a neg. thought, replace it with 2 pos. thoughts! you keep doing that enough, you get tired of WASTING YOUR TIME AND LIFE on the LITTLE stuff.

by the way I am not saying, "don't worry be happy", I'M SAYING IT'S ALL UP TO YOU? IF YOU FALL IN MUD DO YOU STAY THERE OR GET UP AND CLEAN OFF!  you can change the Anxiety and panic, but it MUST START WITH YOU AND ALLOT OF WORK, I AM NOT SAYING 10 MIN. HERE AND THERE. work work work , to change them old FALSE thoughts! you decide! good luck!

[silverberg]

p.s. as for what people think about you, WHO CARES!! please please do not take this wrong, but  I find that when I worry about what people think about me, it's because of my OWN SELF CENTERNESS, my own thoughts that I AM SO INPORTANT people spend there days talking and thinking about me.

IF this is not the case with you (BE HONEST WITH YOURSELF) then remember the only one you need to look up to is the person in the mirror. ok i am done now.. i will not go into song! ;-) hang in there, YOU ARE WORTH IT

[Aliyas]

haha thanks! but thats the whole problem with me! i wont do n e thing myself! i mean if i did that then i wouldnt be here! and i cant go for help my mind wants to but other part of my mind is telling me diff! thanks for your kind comments but like u say im the only person who can help me and thats not going to happen :) x

[Broken3995]

Hello YOU should def go for help You are the one that can start the change and set off in the right direction. Sometimes we ALL need a little guidance in life and help and there is nothing wrong with that at all.
Just set your mind to it and the rest will fall in place.
Good luck to you!

[Ariom63]

You are not alone....it easy for any one person to say "just do it and go"...obviously you have not reached that point. But you have reached the point that you want to go but you are really scared, you are finding reasons not to go...i personally don't think you are being that negative.  You are just afraid of what they will say or do..how could you when you haven't even gone?  I know when I first felt my panic attack..I didn't know what hit me..felt like a darn heart attack.  I didn't want to go to the doctors because I feared they would think I was crazy and put me in some straight jacket and lock me up.  But I didn't want my friends to know...so I asked the one person I trusted more than anyone else...my mom.  
All I can say thanks to her going with me, I am able to enjoy life and live it to it's fullest. Sure...I get anxiety from time to time....but I will not let it control me nor my thoughts...YOU WILL BECOME STRONGER..I have been there and so has everyone else here....It is that 1st baby step you need to take.  Just imagine all the good things that will come of it.  

Moira