Help me figure this out!!!!?

[SeanCky]

I am posting this in 3 forums because I am not sure if this is Depression, OCD, or GAD. I had a severe bout of depression starting around 5-6 months ago. I never really had urges of suicide or hurting myself however. I constantly slept and was very very afraid of sharp objects. I had bad images of attacking loved one's with said objects. Also thoughts of randomly hitting people associated with me. I would go and get no my knees and pray really hard to make it go away. I struggled this deeply for 2 months even having people cut my steak for me and I am 25 years old. I saw a pshyc for 4 visits and mentioned OCD to him but he ruled it out saying that it sounded like moderate Depression. Well needless to say after my last visit with him I no longer had the sadness, or sleepiness and I was motivated once again. However the thoughts of attacking people still lingered in my head. But not people I disliked or who made me angry but the one's I really loved like my wife and family. It has calmed down a whole lot because started to accept that they were there and did not give them fear anymore. I have never even punched someone in my entire life. I am such a peace maker and hate violence so I am not sure why I was having the thoughts. Needless to say I can control them pretty well now...but they are a nuisance and I wish for them to go away. I don't know is this GAD, OCD, or was my doctor right and it is Depression? The reason I ask is because I don't have any symptoms of depression anymore bu those thoughts are still around!! I am puting this in three communities to get the best answers

[litha_26]

I agree with nate. I suffer from gad, depression and mild OCD. I count things and I get the obsessive thoughts about hurting the ppl I love. Say I'm in the kitched cutting something and one of my kids walk into the room I will picture in my head my son walking by as I turn and him running into the knife. Thats just one of the thoughts I get. My Dr. said it's obsessive thoughts of negative things happening. Like nate when I start thinking like that I mentally push them away or I picture an eject button on my forhead and eject the thought. It works for me. I think you should get a 2nd opinion. I wish you the best.

[nateTHEgreat]

  Hey man I get the same types of thoughts, I was diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder 10 years ago when I was 14.... I am now 24 and I have learned by my own accordance to discern these thoughts, whenever they come by mentally pushing them away.... I am no doctor, but from my own experience from dealing with OCD for as long as I have, is you could very well be dealing with OCD, I know your doc disagreed with your notion, but it truly sounds like you might be suffering from OCD.... Any other thoughts or compulsions, that make you feel you could be suffering with OCD... I notice I pray obsessively and count various things....


      Hope this helps

         God Bless You
  
        Nate(+)

[ativan]

Hi there,
I think you need to talk to someone about this problem, I know you say you have had advice and they said you had mild depression have they treated you for that? If you keep getting these thoughts then my advice would be to go back to your doctor and be truthful with him and he will help you, take care,
ativan

[hubbynme]

I am NOT a doctor! But I want to offer all the help I can. My father inlaw is parinoid schizophrenic, and takes medications because of those same thoughts and images. When he doesnt take his meds he wants to hurt people. When he does, he is the greatest nicest person on earth. Perhaps you could research it a little bit to see if there are other traits in your personality that could be linked. I hope this is helpful. Best of luck!