not lovin it

[DJ873]

I know I am doing some better but there are just some symptoms that don't seem to want to let loose. Staying grounded in the now, using mindful meditiation, counseling, have all helped me move forward but  the dang dizzy stuff just makes me nutty. I thought today my body was going to have an anxiety attack. I noticed I kept thinking that my legs felt weak, that I couldn't focus on anything and my mind wanted to tell me I was in danger. I asked my husband to drive me a few blocks away to get something and then said never mind, i am a big girl and can do it myself. I did do it but was sure i was gonna freak out the whole time. I know better than this darn it. I know thoughts can't hurt me so why do I keep thinking that is wrong, that they will hurt me and make me crazy, arg,  ok here goes, reminder to self, look how far i've come, I was sick 3 weeks and then had a tooth pulled 6 days ago that still hurts, cut yourself a break and do your meditation and reading Tolle, OK thanks for letting me vent

[DJ873]

yes we can!!!!

[Megs215]

you can do this. WE can do this!! stay strong friend!!!

[DJ873]

i get these little episodes where i have to stop and hold on cuz i feel like i'm going to black out, it is like a zap, only seems to last a couple of seconds (feels longer) and then seems to go away until the next time. I also get faint feelings often, when exercising etc. I  try to focus and see how i am breathing when this happens, it can be hard to catch, I am learning to feel the feelings without adding fear to it but struggle with that. So ya, that is pretty much how it goes.

[bigdoug75]

can u explain your dizzy stuff feeling.

[DJ873]

thanks alison, i just need to do a check every now and again and stay on target. To stay in the now and cherish each moment is my blessing. To change my self talk takes time. No xanax except the day of the tooth pull which i took as pre-emptive so still ahead of the game.

sassy, i have a tape of hope and help from years ago when i had a time of heightened anxiety. I'll have to dig that back out. I have been using more mindfulness techniques lately that i really enjoy too

[Alisonj29]

I know just how you are feeling hun. But there are always going to be bumps in the world whether they are small or large. Its how we deal with them that matters. I know that you will do just fine. Its hard not to get annoyed by continued symptoms but you have come so far like you said. You cant expect to always feel 100%

[SassyLassie]

Hello DJ. Your anxiety sounds similar to what I experience. It is horrible. I beieve they call it a type of "Agoraphobia" meaning fear of the market place. I have it at times.

There are two great books that I would like for you to read.One is called: "Hope and Help For Your Nerves" the other: "Peace From Nervous Suffering" both are by Dr Claire Weekes, they are awesome, easy to read and understand too. It is like she is sitting next to you holding your hand. I would be lost without my copies. I know a lot of folks in the forum have read her books.

Good luck and God bless.