paranoid? anxiety?

[crackleberry]

i need help with a big problem. paranoia is controlling my life. i worry about everything. i think everyone talks about me where i work which makes me unhappy there. i feel everyone hates me who are ment to be my friends. the worst part is ive been seeing a male 10 years older than me who lives with his girl friend. i love him and he says he loves me too. but i think hes out to hurt me. and i push him away. my paranoia around him is out of control which makes it 10x worse on a regular basis. please help!!!!!!

[crackleberry]

thanks for the reply

[LJF1985]

Hi there, I'm sorry to hear you suffer from this paranoia.
I'm no doctor but you may have some traits of Paranoid Personality Disorder. The lack of trust you have in people, even people you know is a possible indicator of the disorder.
If you were to sit down and think about (easier said than done I know) why people would talk negatively about you or want to hurt you you'd probably struggle to come up with a perfectly logical explanation. I try to use facts in my own life, I convince myself by repeating the facts, examples to fit into your situation would be 'I didn't HEAR them talking about me' 'I haven't DONE anything to upset them'.
Have you ever spoken with a psychiatrist or suitably qualified doctor? If you haven't already, I strongly recommend doing so.
It's nothing to be ashamed of, it's more common than you think and you will find many perfectly normal people on this forum who suffer from PDD, myself included.
All the best.