You sure have a "lot on your plate". No wonder you feel like you do. You need some TLC and maybe a "valium".!!!!! No kidding......you can only take so much, no matter how old you are. Hope your psychiatrist will help. Good luck....Nana
I'm part of of a local Autism Society and I have made some really good friends through this group. If not for my friends, I wouldn't have been able to go to my grandfather's rosary and funeral. Thank God for my friends.
The stress of having special needs kids can truly be overwhelming. But, honestly, the tension between my husband and myself causes me more stress than anything else in my life. He has his own anxiety issues (I think he has OCD). There is a long history of verbal abuse. We've been in counseling for years and I really thought we were past all of that. This last argument really threw me for a loop. I thought, for sure, he'd understand why I needed nice clothes. We have an agreement that, when spending a certain amount of $$, we talk about it first. I told him I was going shopping to buy a couple of nice outfits. My grandfather was buried with full military honors. He was the best man I've ever known. He loved his faith, family and friends--that's all that mattered to him. Completely devoted to the three "f's". I wanted to dress in a way that showed how much love and respect I have for him. But my husband came down really hard on me, demanding that I take back the clothes because I purchased them at Ann Taylor Loft and DSW. They were all on sale--heck, the shoes normally would have cost $80 and I got them for $35. Not bad. He went on and on about how we can't afford to shop at those places (I have before. I guess he just got amnesia). He was absolutely enraged. I just don't know what to do. I can't stop shaking. I'm not feeling particularly nervous right now, but I can barely type. Like I blew a headgasket. I can't get into see my psychiatrist until the end of the month. Does this even happen to other people? Just scared, I guess. Thanks so much for listening.
I hear you, sister. I hope he can become an ally.
I would say try to stay in touch with friends or make friends, but most people would have trouble relating to how difficult your situation truly is--and it's not so easy to go out and meet people with so many special needs at home. Are there any support groups where you live, particularly for those with autistic children? If so, maybe you could find others there who understand, who might be able to help with suggestions or empathy at least.
We're working with the state to get some respite so that we can go out once in a while. I'm not really sure if my husband is an ally or not, however. Its just one thing after another and I'm just supposed to handle it. Alone. Every time there's a crisis, seems like I'm alone. Just the way it is. I don't think it occurs to him to be supportive, but I really can't say for sure. Never know what that man is thinking because he doesn't talk much. I'm just trying to do the best I can to get through each day.
You need a break from all this stress. If you can work it out to get a little guilt free time to yourself, then do it.
Also, do you and your husband every get a chance to go on a date? You need an ally, and he is your closest candidate.