All of nub friends have abandoned me, my family acts as If they are very annoyed by the fact that I have a problem, like they don't need more burden. I am diagnosed with bipolar disorder, it's all new to me and I am scared, sad, suicidal, angry at the same time and I have nobody to talk to except for the shrink who sees me rarely because she's booked. Help me please what do I do. I can't go to the store even without bursting into tears