I've been suffering for so long with this depression, I've just about given up. All the meds I'm on and I feel the same. I'm able to do what I need to do to get by, but I'm definitely not myself. I wake up dreading the day and wondering how I'm going to make it through. I try to get out and walk my dog every day and do things to stay in a routine. It doesn't help that my husband's been laid off for 18 months. My current medications are Depakote, Geodon, Cymbalta and Clonazapam, which I'm going to stop taking. You'd think with all these powerful meds that I'd be in great shape. The Depakote always worked before when I was taking Effexor, then something happened three years ago to bring me to this point. I just seem to move so much slower and feel older. I see my doctor (relatively new) on Wednesday, and she always wants to prescribe more meds. Wish something worked! At least I have some time this summer to try to regroup, since I work at an elementary school. It's hard to see everyone so happy and feel like I do. I try to cover it up the best I can. I really don't have any friends or anyone to do things with other than my husband, son and mom. I really don't like being by myself for too long; I get real fidgety and can't sit still. Other times, I can sit for 4 hours at a time watching tv. I start having lots of thoughts going through my head, wondering if I'm ever going to feel the same again. The doctor isn't easy to talk with, and she seems like she's in a hurry. What do I do? Any suggestions on the course I should take?