Do i got it?

[Helpcanhelp]

Hello I am 18 (boy) and haven't been diagnosed with anything. That is good i guess but i do have a feeling that it can be something. Its all hard to explain and all with my symptoms but its lasted for 2 years now going on and off (getting it more often now)

I have different episodes which is all hard to remember, with different symptoms.

- Feeling unstoppable, thinking why do people make mistakes and i feel that i can't make any.
- Having a great self esteem (changing into feeling totally lost and out of it)
- Thinking i can come up with something that can change the world
- Feeling normal and enjoying stuff generally
- Feeling really good and laughing at anything and having a lot of energy
- Feeling normal
- Being afraid of everything, thinking nothing is going to help
- Feeling very very smart like i can achieve anything i set my mind to
- Starting with something and then quitting after sometime(Guitar, climbing, football, youtube account etc)
- Having problem concentrating
- Being afraid of going to bed because its hard sleeping
- Having problems with numbers
- Being afraid too forget names
- Feeling angry for no apparent reason

Well yeah that is some of my symptoms, normally i am a happy boy which had an easy life i would say, a lot of friends, some hobbies that i enjoyed and a perfect family. The thing that i cannot understand is that i feel that i cant control the way that i feel. Its the hardest thing in the world to describe and even to doctors its hard describing because my mood changes so quickly.

I don't want to try and run from this, but i guess i might have for the last 2 years. I have a lot of questions which i cannot seem to answer.

any help would be appreciated, any word or sentence. Thank you..

[Helpcanhelp]

Thanks for this, ive been very good for like a month or so. Some days agow i started getting this wierd feeling again and havent really done much this week. Whenever it happens i dont really do much or enjoy much things, so i feel like i just want to sleep it out or whatever. I totally understand everything you wrote and how things works in the brain.

I went to a pshyciathrist (can never spell this right) on wednesday and tried to be as honest as i could be. Next time ill try to bring something i wrote like a month ago when i was feeling really bad. This episode im having right now aint that bad but its still not fun at all..

We got a dog and i went out with him a lot last time when i got well, its just easy to break the habit and fall back into doing nothing and waiting for the bad feeling to go away.

[lindahand]

I think it is worth going to a psychiatrist. The feelings of thinking you are the best, smartest, most wonderful person in the world, followed by the lows you describe sounds a lot like bipolar. And you are in the drivers seat. If you think he is full of crap - then you don't have to take the advice.

I wasn't diagnosed until I was in my early 30's. I got diagnosed with depression and anxiety when I was 19. Which I had, but no one asked me about the other part. No one ever asked me if I turned into the energizer bunny. These things tend to get worse as you age if you are not treated so finally it got bad enough that it was crystal clear I was a little off my rocker :).

The theory behind this is that each time you do anything, the brain pathways, the neural net, strengthens. So if you have an episode the brain pathways strengthen making it easier and easier for you to have another one and making each subsequent one stronger. The theory is if you can interupt this pattern and prevent episodes you decrease the strength of the brain pathways and thus will have fewer and less severe episodes.

Until you know make sure you are getting at least a half hour of aerobic exercise 5 times a week. Because something is going on mentally and they know that exercise increases all the 'feel good' chemicals in the brain and will generally help any condition.

[Helpcanhelp]

Sure can be, i just started getting a feeling it could be something more recently.. Im turning 19 soon though, do i still got that much hormones? I wrote down how i felt at saturday though, think it might be smart showing it to my doctor or psychiatrist.

Thanks for the words though, its not only me and my thoughs anymore atleast. I guess thats a start : )

[littlebit667]

It truly may be typical teen hormones making you nuts.  A therapist can help you figure that out.

[Helpcanhelp]

Thanks for the 2 posts, I appreciate it a lot. I talked to my mother yesterday about it and shes afraid that im checking my own body for symptoms like this, maybe i do but im the only one that can feel what im feeling at certain moments.

Right now i feel a bit better for no apparent reason, im not going to school atm either. Trying to explain my feelings is just really hard at times, and it may just be a depression.. But i feel its something more because im not feeling bad for like a reason, for example (lost a friend, getting bullied, etc)

Its more like something that comes and goes which i cannot explain myself. When i feel good i kinda deny it all because im living in the moment feeling well.

I am sorry for you and you're husband not finding out what the problem was until he was 45, thats what im trying to do atm.. Even how hard it is, find out what the problem is and if i can treat it. sometimes i dont want to do anything about it even, just lie down until it passes.

Thanks again.

[skralysgirl]

Hey it sounds a bit like bipolar im 22 and all my family on my mom side has it ! and For me it started as depressions and then i went to drugs to ease the pain. then drugs briought it out totally i was on a mission to save the world. eventually i had to stop usin it caused extreme panic then i would get these amazing thioughts everything felt wonderful i was on a high i would work out run three to  six miles daily go to work then party and i was always the life of the party i was completely vegan i had a revelation on how wonderful it was i was a motivator all my fireinds loved being around me then it swung into depression again life was dark an dreary.. I am not on meds but i have done tons of work eating right herbal remedys sleep thought therapy and i im lot more level with milder swings. talk to a dr!!