Hello, you're not alone. Im sorry you are going through such hard times right now, but it sounds like you are intelligent and looking for answers. Just the fact that you are here in the forum putting a voice to your feelings is awesome, good for you.
My son is treated bad in school and gets really upset about it. He has a condition different from yours but other kids pick on him and call him names also. He has speciall classes and gets really embarrassed so when he is called stupid, it really hits home for him.
Another young man who is a close family friend talks often about the same things you were just saying. A lot of anger directed at himself and others, a lot of fights in school and in his neighborhood, and severe depression bc he feels out of control.
Try to not beat yourself up or feel guilty. We are all doing the best we can.
Stay in touch and let us know how things are going.
thanks but i feel like i am still bipolar and think my doc should just think about that lol
Talk to a Thearopist or if u need someone to talk to message me