Feeling ignored

[Lovelori46]

Hi, I'm new here and I was hoping this is a good place to start.
For a while now I feel like I'm being ignored. It seems that no one in my family including
my mom doesn't want to here my thoughts or my opinion. My husband can't understand that I need to
express my feelings. I feel like I'm suppose to go around with my mouth closed. I CANNOT do that, it is
important that I can express my feelings. But no one in my family wants to hear anything to with emotions. I kind
of turn into a recluse, dont get me wrong, I like getting out but there is nothing out there for me anymore. And yes I have a therapist. But an hour once a week isn't long enough to say all that I want to say, kind like what I am doing now:) if anyone wants to talk I am here.
Lorikai

[Jaygee18]

Yea I get wat u mean... Although my sis tries really hard to listen to me but it seems I'm talkin in another language tat she doesn't understand plus wen I wana talk bout my past relationships she shuts me up bcuz they have to do wit girls nd well I'm a girl myself! It gets really hard nd lonely :'( nd I only get to see my therapist twice a month :( ... It's truly hard to b us!

[AmbassadorofAwesome69]

You have no idea!!   I have one of the most interesting family dynamics you will find.  My parents divorced when I was four, one of those situations where she kept my sister and I away from our father for no reason.  So, long story short, he is not very attached to us as adults plus he (as well as my aunt, his sister) live several states away.  Then, even though my mother and her side all live within 90 miles of each other, most of us don't talk because of some things my mother has pulled over the years.  Then, as a survivor of abuse; a very difficult divorce from my high school sweetheart; a heartbreaking, failed engagement afterwards (she cheated and got pregnant by another guy).  On top of all that, I'm a huge pro wrestling fan (trained but didn't pursue it to marry and have a family) but not a redneck with a high IQ and the first college graduate in the family.  So, there's a quick background.

Having said all that, it is VERY hard to relate to people in my family.  Although my Dad's side has all the, no offense, intelligent ones (all college graduates that went on to work management level, teachers, attorneys, doctors, etc.) I do not communicate with them enough to have an intelligent conversation - something for which my mind, body, brain, spirit absolutely hungers.  I have no cousins, aunts (except one on Mom's side that lives 90 minutes away), uncles, siblings, to which to just say, "Hey, got a minute . . . "  Plenty say "Hey, let me know if you need anything or want to talk" - obviously because I do have a history of depression, suicidal tendencies, etc.  But, yet, when I really need them, I, honest to God, am "cut off" sometimes even to the point where I'm told I talk too much or nobody wants to hear about wrestling or women or whatever.  But, these are the things which I am passionate about so it means something to me.  Let's see.  I live alone.  I think too much sometimes.  So, bottom line, there's a lot I have to process by myself - emotionally, spiritually, physically, sexually, and mentally.  I've learned to deal with it.

Yet, I find myself growing wiser each day about life.  I believe I am a "teacher" in the "ways of the force".  LOL.  So, hey, I'm here for you and so are a bunch of others on here.  Keep posting in the forum and I'm adding it to my watch list.  Message me if you want.  Take care!

[paranoid_cataclysm]

Perhaps the people you try to open up to don't know how to respond to what you said?  Having a mental illness is always a lonely life.

[Lovelori46]

Hi, so tell me a little about what's going on in your life. Do you have friends you can talk to? Trying to have a meaningful conversation with my family is impossible, it's like I am talking on another level. It seems the things I am interesting in go right over their head.

[Lovelori46]

Boy this really sounds familiar, but how do I get people to listen to the crazy things that go on inside my head? I don't think the way I think is crazy, I come up with really cleaver ideas. Or how people just come right up to me in a store and ask for my help, that happens a lot!

[paranoid_cataclysm]

Yeah if I try to talk about what's going on in my life usually they ignore it or immediately change the subject, although all that really goes on with me is I make music and I'm kind of obsessive over music so that might be why but even my musician friends are hard to talk to.

[Lovelori46]

Yes that is how it is with me. Anything that make them have to think about, the conversation is over. Plus everyone wants to talk about themselves!!!

[paranoid_cataclysm]

Ha I can't even get most of my friends to talk to me half the time about anything but then they have bad attention spans, are busy most of the time, etc...

[AmbassadorofAwesome69]

I know EXACTLY how you feel so talk to me . . .

[ethanlirbras]

Hi there,
Its nice that you came here to offer support to others as well. Have you tried taking your husband and mother to the therapist with you? Maybe have them explain to your family how important a support system is for you?

[gofio]

Sad that you feel ignored. You should expect to receive support on here, no diagnosis.Whatever's  'out there' is up to you to find out. This life's all you're likely to get, so it's up to YOU to get out, mix more & you'll find that you are not in a unique situation. BP's hard on the carer, they can't understand how you think/act in most cases. What about friends? If you have not got any you can trust to keep your secrets, you had better go out & find some friends if there's no comfort at home? There will be lots of folk on here that you can chat with to your heart's content. Wish you peace of mind.~George