Everyone has their own reaction to meds, so someone else's experience might not match yours. You also have a diagnosis that isn't classic bipolar. Bipolar 2 is a form of depression that manifests in certain ways, but it isn't a psychosis as true bipolar is so taking antipsychotics isn't necessarily going to help any better than an antidepressant. It might, it might not. It's more likely to have certain side effects, but not necessarily for you. I might add, if you tolerate wellbutrin, a highly stimulating antidepressant, and it doesn't drive you into something like manic behavior, you might want to ask your psychiatrist if you do need an antipsychotic for a non-psychotic diagnosis. But only trying it will tell you how you will react to it, unfortunately.
Hi there. Bipolar has gotten complex over the years with bipolar 1 and bipolar 2 and everything in between! My dear friend has been diagnosed with bipolar 2 and to me, she is often more classic in her presentation but I'm no doctor. The important thing is that she receives treatment and medication that really helps. She's on lamictal as well. She has not attempted suicide but her lows are scary. I'm sorry you have been there as well and to the point of trying to take your life. I AM quite glad though that you are in tune with your bipolar/mental health and working diligently with a doctor. When my friend spirals, it happens when she is not being cooperative with those things. paxiled is a lay person here and not a doctor, nor am I. You, as the person with bipolar, are probably much more versed than either of us. :>) Take what you read with a grain of salt here but know everyone just tries to help. I had years of dealing with mental health disease that was not my own to deal with but learned a lot during that time. But, that is going to be different than what you've experienced living it.
Now, my best friend when she is having hypomania, it is apparent very quickly to me and her loved ones. She is often upset when it is pointed out to her but she is probably older than you so is well aware of 'what is next' which is depression that is so awful for her. If we can catch her before she gets there, all the better. But she greatly enjoys the high of mania. Sigh. She feels on top of the world and like nothing can stop her.
What is your fear of taking lithium? From all I've read, it helps at both ends of bipolar and is very well studied. It helps tone down mania and improve depression.
Lithium as with other medications have different side effects with certain people.
It has worked for me to date. It is important to have your blood monitored and to understand what the level indicates. I started on a higher dose when I was in the treatment phase and then over time had the dose reduced to where it is now which is within the maintenance phase.
But I also attend many groups, with one specific to bipolar. I learn through the meetings how to manage the ups and downs that still will occur. The meds are only part of the remedy. Life is still going to have happiness and sadness. These I deal with by connecting with others, so I have a stronger support system and don’t deviate to alcohol to try and manage my emotions. Good luck in the journey and I hope you find a path that will give pleasure and comfort. Bipolar is manageable.