isnt that strange

[cheeklollipop]

I got myself a puppy at xmas to keep me company while my partner works night which is great but it all seems to be going wrong i have got sooooo clingy to this puppy that ive been think of ways to get out of work to be home with her.
I dont mean ive been booking days off i mean i been thinking about how i could maybe have an accident in work so i could be sent home
I work with acid and i even thought about pouring acid over my arm so i would be off work and could be home with her.
I think about her all the time i mean i really cant stop thinking about her to the point where i start getting depressed and start crying.
This can not be health how can i love an animal so much im pineing after her im so worried something will happen to her. I use to be like this with my partner i didnt want him going out with out me as i get an empty feeling inside
any ideas or im i going mad

[DLA]

The whole puppy issue makes me think Seperation Anxiety Disorder.  But that's just my 2 cents worth.  A very horrid condition to live with.

You should talk to your dr asap about all this.  Am really glad also that you're getting this out there and sharing with ppl to get help.  That's always a really good sign.  =^)

[dazed999]

I hate to say it but your being in that emotional state of mind could be related to - "side effects" to your meds.  Having seen a shrink for sooooo many years; I was told that when you visualize or wonder "what if" I did took this action and don't do it... I was told that (by the shrink), it is the way our BP mind works.  I am pretty sure that there are times when we, the BP person is cutting up some lettuce or something.... we wonder: "what if" I would slice a bit of myself.  You don't do it.  But, your mind does process the thought.  The key is:  "YOU DON'T DO IT"!!!  But, just in case.... do discuss this with your shrink.  ames67 is so right about that.  Just make sure and check it out, make sure it is not one of those "side effects".  Maybe you are taking too much of whatever type of drug they have you on.  I know too well about those side effects.  Peace.

[ames67]

The tone of your relationships with your family being so hot and cold and then with your relationships with your friends are reminescent of Borderline Personality Disorder, but lots of people have on again off again relationships with thier family, for good reason. But what you wrote about your puppy and your severe attachment to her and the constant fear of abandonment had me thinking BPD from your first post. Maybe that forum could offer some help as well. It is good you are looking at the thing with the puppy and recognizing it as different. Take Care!

[cheeklollipop]

I think my relationship is fine with my partner but he never really leaves my side apart form going to work were always together so i dont really know what id be like if he wasnt there he is my rock i turn to him for everything i tell him everything even if its something he doesnt want to hear.
Relationship with family sometimes time i love them loads and worry about them dying and leaving me sometimes i hate them and i could care if they died depends on what mood im in
Relationship with friends im not really bothered i dont care if i see them or not i tell every one of my friends i love them when i see them but  i cant say i care for them most of the time they bore me and i wish they would leave me alone in silence

[ames67]

There could be lots of reasons why you have become so attached to your new puppy. But I would agree thinking about pouring acid on your arm to get out of work to be with her is quite extreme. What are you other social relationships like? Are you that invested in them as well? Definitely something to talk over with your therapist, and if you don;t have one, now would be a good time to get one before you start skipping out on work and lose your job!! WHen you are at work try scheduling a certain time of the day, maybe on your lunch break where you allow yourself to think about her for say 15 minutes, then when the time is done focus on work (especially since it is with hazardous materials, Oh My Gosh!) When you start to worry, just tell yourself to save it for the worry time you have scheduled during your day. Just a thought!!