so I went to see my pdoc yesterday... I had a fight (with hubby) before going and was having a bad day any ways to start, so by the time I arrived I was in tears... my pdoc barely addressed this, still won't give me anti-depressants, and won't get me bloodwork (I'm petrified of my thyroids as problems run in the family)... I'm so peeved!! He says he doesn't want to change my meds if I'm going back to work soon. I'm basically begging to go back to work b/c I can't afford to live like this any more (I get about 50% now)... I believe my depression comes from lack of money so if I'm working again I can afford to buy things again, right? I dunno, I'm so lost right now. I specifically asked for this pdoc b/c when I went to a support group many ppl said he was good. He just doesn't seem to be good for me.... but I doubt there's any other pdoc's taking new patients right now. I feel like I'm at the bottom again trying to climb out of this hole I keep digging myself into. What do I do? and to top it all off, my hubby who has clinical depression (DX's) might have BP instead, according to his mother, sigh... How can 2 ppl with BP deal and live with each other? how do we get through this? wow, I have a lot of questions, sorry. mostly hypothetical, tho, i guess... rambling now
peeved at my pdoc