How can I deal with both Bipolar and Borderline?

[Crazy_Girl]

I've also posted this on the Borderline Forum as well.

I guess I've finally come to a point in my life where I'm realizing that these diseases of my mind are stronger than my will against them. I'm currently in therapy and and on medication to help deal with the symptoms, but slowly and surely I've just destroyed yet another relationship in my life and am so fearful that this will continue forever. The loneliness is killing me, but I have realized that I did this to myself! I drive people away with my inability to control my temper. No matter the problem, I have the same reaction-anger. My mania is filled with anger and hostility, not happiness and elation. Then when I drive the person away, I lash out and impulsively take desperate actions to keep the person around. This drives them even further away! I just really haven't heard of anyone having BOTH of these disorders, and would like to know how I'm supposed to deal with this?!?!? I'm on my last leg really.

[nicc101uk]

Same thing with my man, he wants me to move out but i begged him to give us another go. We are ok for now, but arguably he has issues himself and has overacted to me badly and his reactions can make a situation worse.
I got very confused about how to tell the difference between BPD feeling and BP feelings. I was told that the base mood is BP and the reactions id BPD.
I know how alone you must feel, I constantly feel alone. It gets me down big time. Anti depressants dont seem to help for long before i get down again. ( I am down at the moment).
You feel like your going around in circles don't you, cos you say (like you pointed out), If you had just done this then i wouldn't have reacted that way. and at the time it all seems very reasonable.
James - you should look up BPD on the web, its an instability of mood, sense of self (so having ideas of a career but not sticking to it and changing job roles frequently), explosive reactions etc. Apparantly BPD is commonly diagnosed with BP.

[jimgreg]

what is bipolar and borderline?? im bipolar manic..what is the borderline??  thanks    james

[Crazy_Girl]

I was diagnosed with BPD a few years ago and then shortly thereafter with Bipolar. But not until recently did I actually pursue treatment. Before I would just blame all the problems on those around me saying "I wouldn't feel like this if you hadn't done that to me!" and stuff of that sort. But really what I now realize is that my reactions were way too extreme for whatever situation was at hand. Something as simple as him not getting me a present could erupt into a huge argument because I would give it this underlying meaning, like he didn't love me then. When really, it wasn't that he didn't love me, or that he didn't get me a present, it just wasn't what I wanted, and I would think he should just KNOW what I wanted if he really did love me. It would turn into full blown all night arguments where I'd throw things at him, verbally abuse him, say anything I could to make him feel as horrible as I was. Then when he would get upset and try to leave I would go to desperate measures to keep him there. Threaten to kill myself, etc. Only making what was a simple situation into WAY more than it actually was. I'm by no means out of this cycle yet, as these situations were just happening this weekend and now he has gone to live at his parents until I move out.

[nicc101uk]

I also have bipolar and BPD and i know how you feel. My current other half is steps away from moving out, he can not stand my inability to control my anger or my depressed times and my paranoia.
So you are not alone. When were you diagnosed with both? x