Awful night, what happened? Help please!

[rBoulet]

Last night was so strange, I don't know where to begin but I know I need to sort this out before school starts again.
The past few days I've been feeling great, I had so much energy and was just going and going. I felt like the energizer bunny and I must have slept 3 hours in 3 days during that time. I spent a bunch of money, then yesterday I came down a bit and felt pretty good. It was like the perfect mood, wasn't too up and I wasn't feeling depressed at all just felt a bit tired.
So that night I went to bed, but I couldn't fall asleep, I tossed and turned for a couple of hours and then noticed I was starting to feel restless again. I figured I was just going up in mood again but then my thoughts started to speed up a lot, and the thoughts were all horrible. I kept seeing images of dead people, of me killing myself, of my family all dead. Then all I could hear were explosions and people screaming and I just cried all night for the rest of the night.
I feel mostly fine now, just some lingering thoughts. Been still briefly having thoughts and images of me killing myself but I don't want to. I'm not suicidal at all but I keep seeing and thinking about it, which is really really odd.
I had a psychotic episode once when I was 17 years old and this kind of reminds me of it but at the same time it's pretty different. And it only lasted one night?
Could this be from lack of sleep maybe?
No matter what I'm going to make an appointment with my physician and see if I can talk with the psychologist that works there since I don't have my own psychiatrist to talk to anymore. This seriously scares me though, what if it happens again and doesn't go away? What if I can't start school? And I still have no idea what happened.

[rBoulet]

I don't have a psychiatrist right now to go see. I stopped seeing my last one after she gave me enough medication to overdose on while I was depressed (and it actually almost killed me) and I haven't been able to find a new one that will take my dad's insurance yet.
My mood has been up and down since that night, from really depressed to feeling okay and then back down again. The reason I was obsessing over school like that is because the last two times I went to college I ended up having to drop out because I was hospitalized for the last months of the semesters.

[adel_ezz]

How r u today ? are your obcessions gone, that you will not start school etc... the what if questions occur to bipolars you know, because part of it come other symptoms like OCD for example this is called comorbidity so perhaps all you need is to find an AD which helps, JUST an OPINION to discuss it with your pdoc

take care

[adel_ezz]

Hi

It sounds you are descending from hypomania. Your last post was good in which you seem very energetic. Having bad dreams is a sign of depression, this is how i detect it, so possibly the nice days were gone and you going down the stairs but then you do this like you are cycling simultaneously. You need to see your pdoc to adjust your mood.

"if bipolarity was a man I would have strangled him" Quote me with this.

This is my friend how bipolarity behaves, plenty of contradicting things along with anxiety. Watch out for your meds. you cannot help it.