We have tried and tried to help you, but YOU WILL NOT LISTEN. I made a decision that when I have a private practice I will kick out clients that do not learn and move forward from their issues. Why do you keep coming in here for advice and then do not heed it? I am not trying to sound mean, but if you were one of my clients I would boot you out the door. Call it tough love, darling. WAKE UP.... YOU ARE BIPOLAR,,, so take responsibility and deal with it and love you for what you are, not who you could be. Get off the drugs too!! I told you how I felt about that quite clearly. No excuses, marijuana is not physically addictive. THC causes depression used the way you use it. I know, I experienced it. I hate to sound harsh, but it sounds to me like you are here for attention not help. If you were here for help, you would have taken some of our adivce by now. I do hope this wakes your tail up a bit. Oh, clinginess is a symptom of Co-dependency, not BP, I know, I am a recovering co-dependent too! Take care.
Don't be afraid to tell the doctor, they have heard much worse. You need to be honest so you can get a proper dianosis and then medication. It will be alright, just be honest like you are being here. If you can't tell her, take a written copy of your feeling and send it to her a couple days before your next appointment.
You sound like you really want help with this and you deserve to feel good.
Best of Luck
If you don't tell your dr the entire truth about what is going on with you how can she really help you? You have to be completely honest with her about all the feelings you have, the pot, all of it!
You want to be better, I know you do. I read your posts and I've really listened to you. So wanting to be better and kick the pot it doesn't make sense that you don't tell her. She is not out to judge you, just help you. Do it for yourself just b/c you deserve to feel better and not be going thru this he// all the time.