Confused

[hell1971]

I came off my main medication a few weeks ago and I dont feel right, I am motivated in my head but I cant seem to put it into practice, im sort of blah, no pleasure from anything, everything seems too hard, no enthusiasm I know this sounds like depression but it doesnt feel like it to me, when im depressed i am usually overwhelmed, tearful, cant concentrate and everything feels too much, I dont feel like this, I sort of feel disconected a bit numb I sort of feel like I dont have a place in the world anymore, like Im not needed, I just want to be able to smile and mean it, get up in the morning and let the day go by. Is this depression? just different from what I usually experience. How can i change this?

[babybonita]

Hi I'm new to the forum. I've had many highs and lows & every low seems to be different per episode. It sounds like depression maybe you should consider taking medicine again. Discuss w/ your pdoc if those feelings are lows.

[lindahand]

It sounds like a type of depression to me. Anhedonia I think would be the technical term for it. It is like the blahs time 10.

Defininently talk to your pdoc about how you are feeling as it is significant.

My tdoc uses a statement I hate but doing the actions help. She says to 'fake it to you make it' basically act as if you are okay and your feelings will catch up with your actions. True to an extent but if it is really bad then it is crap. She says that if you wait until you are motivated you will never do it, but if you do it when you are not motivated you may become motivated. Psycho babble - maybe. But it is what I get told.

[Amy4891]

I think you are right. It is nice to have some people to talk to on here, but none of us can diagnose each other or treat each other, or ourselves for that matter. Our pdocs or therapists are the only ones who can do that. I really do like being able to talk to people on here that can relate to me on these things though...it makes me feel not so alone.

[sb7777]

I'd ask your pdoc. Mine told me that empty feelings and not finding joy in activities that once brought happiness could be a form of depression. But your pdoc who knows your case would better answer that question.

[Amy4891]

I have experianced depression a few different ways over the years. Even though it may not feel like how you do normally when depressed that does not mean it is not a form of depression. I think a blah feeling is kind of like depression without the emotional intensity. From what you describe your other symptoms to be it really does sound like depression to me. Maybe the coming off the medication is causing you to experiance it in a different way maybe. I think my depression has changed some just as time went on or with age for me. I hope you feel better soon. I am still confused about being manic since it was my first major one.
I am going to put in a link that may be helpful, but without the http. I love to do research I hate being confused. I hope this helps.
depression-help-resource.com/types-of-depression.htm