I have to second what the other's have posted, but if you don't have a psychiatrist and/or therapist - you're going to stay stuck yourself. PTSD doesn't go away on it's own, it may be the key to why you are still with your spouse. If a person with BP and/or BPD isn't willing to help themselves out, how can you work things out as a couple? If anything, see someone yourself, it couldn't hurt and it may help you with your own ptsd behaviours. Much luck to you.
I think she wants to be 'stable and together' but cant unless she sees a really good psychiatrist and gets sorted out. You should really encourage her to do this.
I am sorry to hear about your Mom and I admire the way you are taking care of her. I hope thinkgs change with your wife, no matter how good her intentions are she cannot 'hold it together' without the right medication. A GP cannot help her, it is too complicated, she needs a good psychiatrist.
Thanks for the comments..for one she doesn't have a psychiatrist, her primary doctor gives her the medication for bipolar..I have loved this girl, woman all my life and on that level we both feel that bond that we belong and have been so called destined to each other...I will have to wait until she crawls out from under her rock to deal with things on a communicative level..She doesn't have a problem with me being here with my mother and in fact it was something we talked about before we were married in that I will take care of my mother and one of the reasons I am here now is to keep my sister from trying to move in and that is another story in and of itself..my wife has repeatedly stated she would love to have my mother move in with us and I appreciate her offering our house like that but my problem is exposing my mother to these mood swings and I ask her about that.."What are you going to do when you experience one of your 'moments' with my mother here?" She said she could maintain or control any outward signs of troubles or things bothering her...still I am not confident in that..the house is big enough to get away from each other if necessary..My mother doesn't have long to live and I just don't want to uproot her at this time in her life...
I know when my wife comes back from Oz that I will have to tell either she gets some psychiatric help and stay on her meds or we need to reconsider our marriage..would this hurt..hell yes..I dread having to go through the heartpain and pain I may be causing her. I made that sort of comment once before and she changed her attitude really quick..I tell her what she is doing has ramifications for everyone around her..it is not just her involved but anyone she has contact with..we all suffer...
Can anyone tell me if her wanting to be cutoff from everyone, no phone calls only doing what is absolutely necessary to get by..she has to go to work obviously and how she maintains a day at the college seems difficult to maintain but she does..but do bipolar persons on their downside seclude themselves and if so what is a normal time they cut themselves off before the upside begins?? She has these very intense anxiety attacks and I can relate because I had what was termed as an anxiety attack where I felt cutoff from body and mind..felt like I was losing my mind and had no control over my thoughts racing through my head..fear, fright..felt like I was going nuts and actually started to call 911..that's how bad it was but it was the only time I ever experienced anything like that..but that's how she feels when she has her attacks on top of her bipolar issues..I can sympathize with her and feel helpless to try to help her..
I thank you all for your keen insight into this disease and hope to hear more from you all..it helps and I look forward to it..take care..god bless everyone..
Dear bigmuny,
It does sound like her meds are out of balance and she needs to go to her pdoc.
I am not sure why she said, "I Do", but some things just don't add up.
First, if you are taking care of your mom, is it in her familiar surroundings? Second, could you move your mom in with you and your wife?
Yes her diabetes needs to be attended to and so does her high blood pressure. BUT most of all you need to make your marriage a marriage. If that means going with her to her pdoc, insist. Or see him on your own and get advice from him/her.
I am sorry for what you are going through. Psych meds can lead to long term sexual disfuction and lack of interest on the part of the one taking them.
Your intent of marrying her was to right a wrong, love faithfully the one you left behind and spend the rest of your life with her. It is not your fault that she has had three failed marriages nor that her daughters treat her poorly.
I have bp2, my girls are grown and sometimes treat me as a person needing help, but the majority of the time we still remain loving and respectful, so it is not the bp that causes her girls to do this.....mine have seen me at every level of the disorder including lock down.
You have some serious decisions to make, hopefully through prayer.
You have helped keep America alive by fighting for us, fight for your marriage...if you can.
zzzmykids
My god what a story. It sounds like she is not on the right medication as she is still experiencing strong symptoms.
I dont know, I dont think you should blame yourself for her messed up life. You are not resposible for that. I do not know how else to advise, only that you have tried your best and you are being messed around now for sure.
Best wishes
You might want to speak to her psychiatrist with her about having her medications adjusted. Her diabetes and high blood pressure need to be treated by a doctor. They might potentially be a side effect of one of the medications but that can be managed. Only a psychiatrist can provide a diagnosis but with borderline personality disorder a person is emotionally manipulative as you describe. That is treated with medication, talk therapy and cognitive behavioral therapy. Worth speaking to her psychiatrist about.