Hi, just joined this community, noticed when im feeling like shyte looking online can help. been really manic for the last couple weeks as a whole, but have had lows thrown in after somethings touched a nerve. recently when I've felt a low coming on it's like iv'e got narcolepsy lol, I just seem to instantly get tired and fall asleep, then usually feel a bit better when I wake up. Then usually getting manic within a couple hours.
So, my sleepings been around the wrong way for a few weeks now , isn't too much of a problem as im unable to works atm, but I do distance learning through the Open University. It's good cus when im manic I can do a months worth of study in a week, then when I hit a low I don't have to feel pressure to study.
Anyway what brings me here today, woke up at 11pm as per usual, started working up to mania about 6am, but then it really pushed over the edge, not mania anymore. rocking, clasping my head in my hands, feeling absolutely awful. haven't felt that way for years. definitely felt like psychosis coming on again. feeling like people can here my thoughts, being watched ect. Doesn't help that I do actually have a ghost in my house/ flat/ apartment. (that's not the crazy lol, stuff falls off shelf's goes missing, bumps and bangs).
Anyway it wan't mania, not depression as such. I don't know, really intense and scary.
feeling slightly tearful now but a bit calmer, came on here, erad some of what others are feeling and left a few posts. have wanted to join a community like this for awhile now, so hopefully i'll be back when I feel the need.
Thank you to anybody who has taken the time to ead, hope your holding up, and remember, however bad you feel it will change soon..... great. lol