Here is where I posted the marathon of a comment. If it's lost, at least
it relieved some of the severe mania I had. It think the fast tapering I'm
doing is effecting the BP. Not sure. Maybe the painkillers were masking
it and I'm now more aware of its severity.
Well, it just started to rain, a lot. Guess the gardening will have to wait.
Thanks to all of you for the many good suggestions. I am still having trouble getting motivated. I am gonna try to go outside (with my tea and music) and do some gardening. Exercise will be good I think.
I force myself to Do something that requires no thought. I find searching for relief or trying to understand WHY, makes it worse. My family knows not to ask what's wrong more than once. If I don't have a specific answer, they know to leave me alone. Swimming helps me a lot, I think mindless physical exercise helps my brain chemistry mellow out, to at least tolerable.
Thanks, I will give these things a try. Tea is a calmer for me too :-)
I get the doomsday feeling a lot. For me, it's either a sign of depression or it happens when there are big changes in my life. I don't know how to prevent depression really. But what I do try to do is cling to happy for dear life. I do as many relaxing, enjoyable things as I can do. (for me, it's drink tea, paint my nails, cook my favorite meal) It doesn't necessarily prevent the depression, but it does tend to dampen it.