is this normal

[25andhurt]

hi all im just wondering if its normal to think ur being followed and thinkin that every1 is talking about me? ive felt this way nearly all my life. also when i was in my teens i used to think ther was tiny camerers in my house put ther by my boyfriend n i wld play up to the so called camerers. and recently ive started thinkin ther may be camerers in my house and im actin upto them again. is this normal? im tired of lookin behinde me when im outside but i hear footsteps behind me n i look but no1s ther, plus im on remeron yet i cant sleep unless i use it with ganja.

[25andhurt]

thanx for all ur replys.x.x.x and ye when i was a child i used to play up to the camerers in ma room plus i had a nitemare every month of sum1 killin ma frndz 1 by 1 each month

[Xila31]

I just want to say when I read that about the cameras in your house.... when I was a little girl in elementary school, like around 9-10 years old, I seriously believed the kids in my school had put cameras in the bathroom in my house so that they could spy on me and make fun of me. I was not well liked as a child, I had very few friends, so I really did think other children were spying on me. That really hit me. :(

It just shows how far back some of these things can reach.

[dawsohs]

Hey, yes i do think people are following me sometimes, also think i have an angel that follows me round watching and helping me, and other times it's abit naughty and pushes doors open or makes taps drip etc. I have also felt that i have cameras that someone has set up in my home to spy on me, however, i do know these thoughts are irrational,tends to be if im on a high trip as i call it. I guess we all have different thoughts/feelings/reactions to stuff. I'm just really learning how to deal with myself so ive never actually admitted any of that before, but i feel nice that i'm not alone. Thanks for sharing everyone, x Holly x

[ADHDBMX]

I've also been in a state of mind, usually after taking even a low dose of my medication (adderall) or little sleep, that I was going to change the world, and I had a mission like a god sent ability.  It quickly wears off, but sometimes it can linger for a couple weeks and I'll be a very motivated person.  

[paranoid_cataclysm]

It can be normal for when you're going through a psychotic episode if it has no basis in reality, if that's what you mean.  I've had thoughts like this before, sometimes frequently, but mine were taken a step further than that in terms of paranoia with things like worrying people had an omnipresence where they could hear what I was saying or read what I was writing no matter where they are at.

[ADHDBMX]

I developed a sense that someone was following me a long time ago as well and sometimes I can get jumpy walking around at night.  I also had feelings that I was on stage at times and imagined people watching me perform, usually this occurred when I was talking to people or excited.  I also notice myself feeling like people are saying more than they really say and that there are a lot of hidden meanings when people talk to me.  I always catch myself and try and just forget the moment as soon as I get suspicious.  The other thing that I experience is people looking at me a certain way when I talk and I know that they are just harboring negativity towards me while I talk, especially people I know well.  Are these classified as delusions? because I never thought about it till now, but I have similar feelings with 25andhurt.

[heyjude1]

Hi, I agree with Iladvocate that you should discuss with your p-doc, perhaps you need a medication change or additon.  I have never felt like someone was following me but I have felt that people are talking about me.  I have also been talking to myself mentally and answer out loud to myself unintentionally.  I just assumed this is something fairly normal but now you have me wondering about it!  Maybe someone else can give advice on this.

[ILADVOCATE]

I had these kind of thoughts before recovery when I was psychotic and of course if people tried to be manipulative of me and pretend that they thought they thought that what I believed was true it would only confirm it for me even though it had no basis in reality. You should discuss it with your psychiatrist and also try to see if those kind of thoughts come and go (especially with moodswings) or are there all the time and discuss that as well. I would think that you are taking with the Remeron would only make any of that worse and I know someone who has bipolar and they told me the one time they tried smoking that it made them psychotic for that day. If you have any side effects from the Remerom you can't tolerate or it is not treating what you are experiencing or is activating in that it keeps you up at night you should discuss that with your psychiatrist as well.

[25andhurt]

i also talk to myself like i wil b thinkin then a question cumz into my mind and i answer it aloud it just slips out.