Repression.. good or bad?

[goofyfrog]

I have delt with the darker side of my mind for years now thru repression.  When i try to let it out, and live with it, it consumes me, and i get lost into the darkness.  I am being advised right now to "let it go"  and to "learn to live with it" .. but i have lived happily with repressing it, wat i am wanting to know is, am i hurting myself in the long run?  Or am i doin myself a favor and pushing it back so far, that eventually it will get pushed completly out of my mind?  What brought this on, is last night was the worst night i have endured in over 6 years, i was around something i didnt want to be around, and got wat was called a "contact buzz", i have avoided all things to alter my mind all my life becoz i dont want to unleash the demons i try to so hard to retain, but last night, i think watever the buzz was i caught, loosened my grip on my reality, coz i couldnt bring myself out of the scary places.  

[zsadia]

I tried to repress my feelings and behavior for SEVERAL years and it ended with me finally going to a specialist after a failed suicide attempt. Trust me, better out than in as they always say.

[ILADVOCATE]

Best to discuss any thoughts you have with a therapist as repressing them will not solve the inner conflicts. A psychiatrist would of course determine whether adjusting medications could help them but if they stem from from real world issues its best to understand where they came from and discuss what coping strategies might help resolve them.

[heyjude1]

I agree, BP is more of a chemical inbalance and not necessarily one can repress for long.  I sure wish I had some magic words for you.

[paranoid_cataclysm]

Think of it as a glass filling up with water that is being ignored, eventually it overflows and spills over.  I was told once "you have to feel it, to heal it" which was a witty way of saying the same thing I believed to be true already.