I am so confused on what to do at this crucial point in my life. I am one of the unlucky individuals that started getting extreme mood swings from using crystal meth for approx 3 yrs. How I know I'm not truely bipolar is that there is no history of the illness on either side of my family, and secondly...I started to get major mood swings at the end of my bout with my use with Crystal Meth which was like 10-12 yrs ago.
I still have rapid mood swings, and when I say rapid I mean like every 4-5 hrs. On a bad day, even more rapid.
Now, I guess I've caused brain damage..at this point there is no question in my mind, as like I said, I've had these rapid mood swings for so long now.
I don't even get angry anymore, but rather surpress these mood swings, and I am constantly in a lot of pain(my lower abdomen). Sometimes my stomach is in so much pain, I have to lie iin my bed in the fetal position.
I can't express my anger as I am so dependant on my family(mom especially) and I cannot just go crazy with my anger or outbursts, as I need her around. I am all alone, and i'm on disability my mental state is so very frail.
What I would like to know is..is if there is any specific medication out there(Canada) that could help relieve the pain of these extreme mood swings?
Right now I'm on Seroquel, Divalprolex, Paxil and clonazapam, but I am constantly rapid cycling.
I have learnt a bit of DBT, but it seems like I can't get by these mood swings.
Please...could u reccomend a medication(s) that may have helped with these sort of these extreme mood swings in the past? My life has no meaning anymore, and everything is revolved around the dread of my next painful mood swing.
I'm in an area now where there isn't crystal meth(or well that I know of anyway) and the psychiatrists just keep trying new meds on me that have little or no effect on these rollercoaster mood swings.
Plz, any medication(s) that may have a history of helping with this disorder would/could help save my life. IS THERE ANYTHING THAT COULD LESSEN THE BLOW OF THIS AFFLICTION?
Thank you,
noize