Paranoid...I guess. My sister and I have trust issues, and tonight I asked her a question which got her really upset. I asked her if she was telling my ex my business. I lost the apartment I was suppose to move into tomorrow. My unemployment check didnt come on time (today) and when I asked the landlord if I could move my stuff in Sunday and pay him Monday he said he wanted me to pay the entire security deposit (we had agreed that I would pay $300.00 in the middle of Nov. and $300.00 in the middle of Dec.) he decides he wants the full the amount upon the move in..$600.00. After hours of me crying (because there is no way I can do this), my sister asked me if I had told my kids that I wasnt moving, ..I said no, I would tell them when I talked to them at the regular time tonight. A while later, my sister said she was calling AT&T to tell them not to cancel the phone service for me (it was like 7:30-8:00 at night, I thought that they werent open that late to take calls) she went into her bedroom and all I heard her say was "no" "no" ect. Then I called my kids, no answer...I talk to them every night and when they arent going to be there, they call me before our specified time of 8:00 p.m. So anyway, my stupid bi-polar and stupid paranoia (not spelled right) led me to believe that my sister might be telling my business to my ex and now he doesnt want me to talk to the kids. I was having all these thoughts (the kind that wont let your mind rest) so I thought, hey, its only 9:22 p.m. (8:22 if you already set your clocks back), her light was still on in her room and I can just ask her about it. No....She got really. really upset with me. I dont know what to do. I am so thankful for all she has done for me, (although she doesnt believe it) I make my stay worthwhile for her, at least I think I do, I pay $650.00 a month for one person. (is that good? Rent, Utilities and $3.50 a day for food, living in the basement? ( I also pay for my own pop, and other food that she wouldnt regularly buy) but she doesnt want me here, I dont want to be here...I want to have my own place and be able to see my older son whenever I can, and have my younger son live with me ( I cant do that while I am here) My sister is judgemental of me, and talks negative about me to family so often, that when all these circumstances happened, my mind began to race. I know my sister loves me, but in my mind, sometimes she seems out to hurt me. Since my apartment fell through. I still have to be here for a while. I feel sorry for her also, I mean she has her own life, which I am screwing up just by being here. Anyway, what a mess. Anyone have any good advice?