Talking to myself

[Crystlas]

Hello my fellow bipolars.  I have had this strange habit for most of my life, in fact, I think since early childhood.  I have this constant voice in my head and I conversate with it all the time.  It is kind of me talking in my head,  but I ask it questions and I answer it.  Am I crazy or is this normal for bipolars?  I was getting ready for bed just now and having a conversation with my brain voice and thought, I wonder if other bipolars do this?  I talk to myself all the time, even out shopping.  People probably think I am a crazy person.   Atleast I am not a lonely person, I always have my brain friend! LOL  Thanks!

[DLA]

I play out most scenarios in my head, too!!  Conversations to come, conversations I've already had, things that might possibly come up in my life time.  LOL  But you know when my fil died I already had everything planned out in my mind that I was going to do to get my dh home.  No, he wasn't even sick!  Go figure.  So it all worked out just the way I had planned it and dh didn't fall apart at work or anything.  Now I have a plan for my mil.  She's 86, be turning 87 soon, so it's not out of the realm of possibilities.

Sometimes it's nice to know what I'm going to do, but sometimes it just wears on me having all those "future plans".  

It is a fine line between genius and nuts!!  LOL Yeah, I'm walking that line everyday!   ROFLMBO!!!  I'm just NUTS!  

[jeh57]

I know this is not funny at all, but i am laughing my a$$ off right now!!!! Oh my gosh,I did the same thing,I went to my daddy's funeral,he was still alive!!!!! I have even been to my own!!! I am not kidding you, I really have!! I have been to alot of people's. It does wear you out! I talk to myself constantly,not always outloud,tho. You have to watch that,Right!? People might think wer'e nuts!!! I am still laughing so hard.......LOL.......

[jeh57]

No,I have never actually read alot about Bipolar. I have known several people that had the Dx. of being Bipolar......For some reason,I always thought they were just acting that way. You know what i mean,they could control these episodes,just chose not to. Maybe i was wrong! I worked @ a nusing home where we had this one woman,nice as she could be, but nuts!!! She would tear her room up @ night!!!!! She was on med.,just didn't do her much good. This one older man (91) year old,said he had a chemical imbalance,lord,he would be 3-4 different people ,sometimes during the same conversation!! He had a Dx. of Bipolar...This was a sad situation. I had an instructor in college that was really out there. He was smart,but had no common sense. He said he was Bipolar(just alittle),had a wife that was a Dr. (She was a nut case,too) They were both real nice.......

[Crystlas]

Nope, we can not control our highs and lows w/o the proper medication.  I hate stigma attached to stuff.  I used to think like you and then...BAM  I find out that I am bipolar and very much so.  I have the worst kind there is, in fact.  Bipolar I rapid cycling, mixed state.  Anyhow, it sucks not being able to control myself.  I hate it so very much.  I am on great meds now and feeling stable.  My thinking pattern is totally different when I am manic, stable or depressed.

[DLA]

I agree!  I use to think ppl with bp were absolutely NUTS until I read about it and went "Hey, that's me!"   Hmmmmm. . . . .

jeh, laugh away!  My life is either quite comical or quite the tragedy.  I pick comical!

[Crystlas]

Agreed, I am learning to roll with that ugly little man living in there.  He is behaving lately..yeah!  I just dowsed him with Wellbutrin...darn SOB of a guy!!  LOL.... see I make jokes about being BP and it is much nicer to live with!  Gotta roll with the punches.  Gosh a year ago, my life was bonkers.  Being stable rocks!  I hope these meds continue to keep me this way.  Now if I could only get the boyfriend, previous fiance, thing straightened out life would be close to perfect!  Time will tell....