Hey all....I have to ramble...an incredible need to write my thoughts. I have been feeling fantastic the past 2 weeks but started a few days to notice a few cracks. I was starting to feel sad and then last night I could not sleep...I had tons of energy...I actually went in to work at 1am and had an overwhelming focus on very concrete things...like fixing my computer (I am an IT Administrator). Woke up early this morning with no effect of the little sleep I had and am racing like crazy! The thing is is that as long as I can be alone it feels fu*#ing incredible......a twinge of out of control anxiety coupled with euphori. If I cant stay at this pace I'll start to get too much anxiety and not enough euphoria.
I surfing the net I came across this quote of a persons experience with hypomania that describes mine as well:
"At first when I'm high, it's tremendous ... ideas are fast ... like shooting stars you follow until brighter ones appear... . All shyness disappears, the right words and gestures are suddenly there ... uninteresting people, things become intensely interesting. Sensuality is pervasive, the desire to seduce and be seduced is irresistible. Your marrow is infused with unbelievable feelings of ease, power, well-being, omnipotence, euphoria ... you can do anything ... but somewhere this changes."
Anyway thanks for listening....I am going to have to call my doc tomorrow and probably get my med tweaked (i am on the lowest dose of Abilify). Maybe I'll go run around the house a couple times or even better pound nails!
Stay strong!
Sidelgato