ALL BIPOLAR PEOPLE READ THIS

[denicalis]

Hello Fellow Bipolar People :)  

Ah, how many times has our mind tried to run away from us... how many times have we PRAYED to not wake up. How many times have we Googled better ways to kill ourselves. When, all of a sudden we become elated with a HIGH so euphoric we could fly! And all the flowers are brighter in ours then anyones eyes! And we hate mind. WHY must be like this. All the ruined relationships, All the struggle and pain we endure everyday. It is a horrid task to wake up in the morning and realize you must breath another breath.

BUT WAIT! We have something Sane people DO NOT have. We see the world differently, through a spectrum of emotions the general population will NEVER be able to experience. Many of the best writers and songs writers in our history and current times are Bipolar. We feel what others cannot. In a way, we must also embrace the depth of our downs, as these downs are indescribable to any human psyche. It is almost like us trying to imagine how the Universe began... that is the grasp normal people have on how deep and dark our emotions are.

Even in our semi-norm days we have a difficult time completely recalling just how dark that moment was. But remember... we are unique. Our brain has challenged us in a way of near impossibility, but through each of our strength we can get through it. When we fall to our knees crying into the black abyss that seems to surround us, the most beautiful, emotional art can be formed. Embrace yourself and your Bipolar more. We are some of the most strong individuals. You and I both know that.

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[ninabina]

Thanks so much for your post... I needed to read this, i made me feel so good to know that I'm not alone fighting this gift and curse.

[bbkkb143]

Your post was great, the first time i've seen bipolar people portrayed positively.  Way to go!  Do you think the reason bipolar people have such highs and lows is because God has allowed us to see the best of the best as well as the worst of the worst in the universe?  Like our eyes have been opened and our struggle (the whole good vs. evil struggle) is such a wild ride simply because we can see, taste, and feel, heaven right here on earth; however, being human we keep getting drawn down into the dark?  Well, I'm still not sure on that hypothesis either.  What I do know is BIPOLAR PEOPLE EXPERIENCE LIFE in ways that SANE, NORMAL PEOPLE NEVER WILL.  WE ARE BLESSED, WE ARE CURSED, BUT OUR JOURNEY IS WORTH EVERY MOMENT.

[jimgreg]

your rite there.im very smart person..and everything that you said is rite..normals couldnt live in our shoes..i know it you know it and they know it.. well said..mail me if you want to  im james

[bbgirl011]

Seriousily I can't tell you how much you just put a smile to my face.

How much I think I need to go and hug my mom and tell her that I love her. For all that she has given me. I mean, I think she feels gulity because she created me and gave me what I have. I use to feel this was a curse. I had no life. Just weird moods I couldn't explain. Melt downs after melt downs. Now that I finally have the base and am making slow but gentle progress - I feel better, I feel alive. I can function as a person.

When these down moods occur and no one understands why - it's terrible. You try to explain why your sad when people ask and then they just think your nuts. No you can't be sad because of this - its just not right to be sad because of that. NO NO NO NO! Then you say you can't help it. Boy - was that EVER the wrong thing to say. People walk all over you. Saying you are wrong! Saying you can change everything if you put your mind to it! But no - people just don't understand that your brain is different and it takes time till your brain figures out how to cope properly.

Mania moods is like a mini high with out needing to take drugs (illegal ones that is), drink the alcohol, or boost for that adrenline rush. In my mind that is. I think this has some how made my life chemical/alochol free. I don't feel the need to get any rushes because I have them all the time in these moods.

Your post just inspired me so much :) I mean I know once I hit a down mood Im going to forget because it's a down mood. Down moods are terrible for that. But not when its either a normal, mania, or hypomania mood just things will feel better. Just have to keep it in my mind that I am different, and that is okay, we are creative and strong. We see the world in a different eye.

Just like every other person out there with a mental illness. <3

[bpchrisb]

We're aliens, there's no way around it.. LOL.

Dealing with MI all of my life has given me a lot of strength and resolve, in general. It's allowed me to be self-reflective and to understand myself and how the world around me affects me.

Most importantly, it's taught me to accept what's out of my control; internal and external. If you have no control over something, don't try to; it's a waste of energy.

[emmy0]

i loved your post! im on a massive downer at the moment but this made me smile! we are different but in a good way. we feel in a way others could never comprehend.. im a graphic designer and i miss alot of work because of my BD but i make up for it in amazing work when im well.. or high.. the thing that bother's me more than the state of suicidal thoughts is people thinking im a drug nut coz im ether talking overly fast n pacing around the room or that doped up on meds that im realllllly not with it at all... but i guess thats what makes me me.. im different n id rather have my quirks and overactive imagination n sleepless nights... the 'norm' is boring.. (yet ya still gotta look after urself)

[monkeyc]

No one understands what we go through, this is why I am so not a fan of reminding people of famous bipolar's; because it cheapens our day to day struggles.

Our worlds are more complex, more frightening and sometimes more special than other people ever realise.

You can't explain it to them, they way we are, you can't explain why you take 17 pills a day, why you spent months in hospital last year or why you wake up not knowing what mood you will be in today all too often

There are things I don't like, losing a week's memory, taking drugs every day (though I dont mind the anti-psychotics which make me sane), endless doctors visits, struggling with depressive episodes, suicidality and working out how to do it and many other things but I would not change a thing in the end - I like who i am, im unique and i am me.

[denicalis]

I am so incredibly happy... almost manic hehe... that my post helped and didnt **** people off :D

I was just so tired of the psychiatrists putting me on anti psychotics that made me someone I wasnt... and everyone around me not understanding what I was going through, that I wanted to come on here and tell the people that would understand that we are not just a label! Eventhough we carry this huge burden within ourselves... we are not broken or something to be thrown away. And I finally came to realize that in a way we are empowered and I really wanted to share that.

So, sorry to the sane people who will never understand how our art and our words can be so powerful and deep and sometimes scary... but you will just have accept its beauty and its creator. =^.^=. Hehe. I am excited about the responses... super heart warming.

[Snakenstein]

D'aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwww! Nice post!
I agree. Without my quirks, who would I be?
I remember when I was going through one of my darker times (I was suicidal but had very much energy) all I would do all day is draw, for hours and hours. My artistic skills improved DRAMATICALLY and it started me on a road of doing what I love and always wanted to do, and remembering to add DETAIL!  
Now ive got something to be a least semi-proud of and turn to in times of distress. And I wouldn't be as good of an artist without it. (Staying up all night adding tiny individual pencil flecks to create and intricate background :3)

[rogelio63]

Thank you for your words.  

Thank you very much.

Rogelio

[Fizzy74]

Thank you, your post makes so much sense!  The words you did are fantastic, I have copied them and going to print them out and put them on my wall.  

I am proud of my bipolar and have embraced it (although yes on the downslide after the manias not so much).  

I guess even when we are medicated and "sorted" you still have your relapses and slides ay??!!!!

So thank you for making it crystal clear and perhaps easier for other people to understand!

[denicalis]

Hehe yes we do know what comes after that.

My Psychotherapist used to call it "The bill"

Lawl.

[heyjude1]

Yes, mania is wonderfult but we all know what happens after that......

[nobody666]

To think some days it is only mania or depression and the only goal is to be content, numb to the world and call ourselves normal. There is hope that someday we can know happiness again not just mere contentment. Reality is for people who lack imagination. If you believe it you can achieve it bipolar or not. :)

[denicalis]

The reply you just left made me feel wonderful :D! Ty for reading it. And yes, the manic days are super great ^^ hehe.

[braccio]

Just reading your posting made me feel a little bit better.  It's true that being bipolar can at times be unbearable and no one else can really understand what we're up against.  I long for my manic days compared to the depths of depression.  The descriptive words you used were wonderful!!

[heyjude1]

Yes, some of the most famous of artist and composer were Bipolar.  I read that it is thought the reason Bipolar people are so creative is because of our mania.
We are just a group of misunderstood people that happen to suffer from issues with brain chemicals.  We are labeled "weird and crazy" because people are not educated in our disorder.  We are just a group of people try to make our way down the path of life just like everyone else.