awake while asleep asleep while awake

[breakdance202]

Husband left for work he told me I went to bed at one and got up at seven, but I swear I didn't actually fall asleep until around three because thoughts were screaming in my head about spheres and my ancestry and what if there is no time and we're all stacked up like a deck of cards, and I wanted to stab myself in the forehead to make it stop, and it felt like things were staring at me in the darkness so what if I really was dreaming, and what if I'm still dreaming and when I'm awake I'm asleep and when I'm asleep when I'm awake and need to snap my wrist so I know for sure when I'm dreaming too, but than I really can't tell. I did before, but what if I've already started the dream snapping, and what if my husband thinks I'm lying, and if I since I'm not sure whether I'm awake or not I can't jump off of any buildings beause if I'm awake I won't fly and just fall and become paralyzed or something.

[breakdance202]

I can't think of anything. Stressed for a very long time. I just need to wake up and I'd be fine.

[Bubulous]

Mania occurs when you least expect it but mostly when stress in your life gets too high.  If it is the good type of stress you may experience the good kind of mania and if it is the bad well it is the other way around.
I am not sure what caused yours but maybe you can tell me.
I hope you got some sleep.

[breakdance202]

So...i must really not be, if only the dream me is, and the non dream me doesn't get this way.

[breakdance202]

Okay, mania researched. Trouble concentrating on reading right now but it was eye opening. I am manic. I don't know how this can be. It came out of nowhere. I must be having a dream where I am because all of the stop signs say pots instead of stop and I keep on reading everything backwards and I've bee constantly snapping my wrist but now it's not helping. I have come to revelations about the world around me. When I start writing in my journal I literally can't stop. Husband is laying down the law tonight. Early bedtime, boring movie, and I'm taking a unisom.

[Bubulous]

I was pretty sure the other day but know I am almost positive.... Hun, you are manic.  I know the other day your words were "I'm not manic, I have never been that happy."  I should have said it then but I wasn't thinking.  Mania is not always a happy time.  Mania can be a happy time for those of us who use the mania to do our arts but trust me mania can be bad as well and it sounds like you are experiencing one of the bad ones.  If you can accept that you are manic tell me you are manic and I will try to help.  If you need further proof do some research on mania and you will see.