It was a strange year for me. I had problems in 2005 by taking on too much when my husband was laid off. I had too many part time jobs so I decided to dump the extra jobs and stick with subbing. I couldn't handle the load. My depression didn't last long with the doc tweaking my med's.
This illness is very cunning because this spring 2009 episode happen when I was feeling fine. It's like watching National Geographics "Seconds before Disaster"....you become a investigator trying to figure out what lead up to the disaster.
Did I get enough sleep? Did I take my med's regularly? My mother got ill during the fall but it was a false alarm but it got me worked up. Was it the kids during March Madness? Subbing during the Spring months are very difficult for me because the kids really act crazy and I get all manicky! They should have recess for the kids so they can burn off that energy!
I've been subbing for 10 years now. I was able to function well during the other school years because I paid attention to my red flags and backed off. I took some time off. I'll tell the sub coordinator I need a change pace. So I go to the rotten schools for a spell, decompress in calmer schools for awhile, go back to the rotten schools for more torture and then do "Individual Educational Plan" where I just roam the building telling teachers to go meetings with parents while I take over their class. Sometimes the parents don't show up so I'm sitting in the teachers lounge reading.
So you can't beat that! The job is enough for me. I've been in office jobs in the past where I'm under stimulated. The job was so boring it drove me to tears.
I'm like a bee that goes from one place to another. I like going to different schools because I don't get tangled with politics. Office politics can cause a lot of stress too and I don't want to get involved. If I stay in one location too long...familiarity breeds contempt.
I want to be a friend to all.
Google books does have interesting reading material. I really like this one especially about establishing some type of rhythm in your daily life. I really could identify what was going on because bipolar to me is like a balancing act.
http://books.google.com/books?id=cRMzWcXgFeAC&pg=PA96&lpg=PA96&dq=bipolars+and+over+stimulated&source=bl&ots=xUpAnFMb7e&sig=ZHtxTOF2Sgn_mxTvJaA0csOktak&hl=en&ei=OX9mSsiFOIz-MN3iuaEB&sa=X&oi=book_result&ct=result&resnum=4
Teachers do have hard jobs. My family is full of teachers and it is very stressful and is not as easy as people think.
Work is very stressful. I work with patients. Most of them are friendly and usually things go smoothly. It doesn't take much for an angry patient to trigger me, though, and that makes for a rough day trying to hold it all in. I usually go and hide in the storage room if things are really bad. My job is semi-structured, so it is easier, but this year the structure is changing and it gets hard for me. Plus I've had a lot of concentration issues.
Unlike you I have to work full time. I wish I could have a flexible job and work part time, but the cut in pay would put my family in crisis. So, I struggle on as best I can.
At least you can work and with kids no less! I fall apart( I call it decompose) any time I try to work. The quieter my life is, the more stable I stay.