Your anger, pain, frustration, sorrow and disappointment come out very clearly in your voice. Anger does not have to be a bad thing as long as a person rises above it and doesn't allow it to completely take over a decision. Use it to take you to a better place and a better situation, where you can live and breathe in a place of growth and empowerment.
I also vote for the second option. Why do yourself the further injustice to buckle down to an oppressive situation and give in. It seems to me it isn't true to the spirit inside yourself. This is another situation you can overcome and allows you to go on to a bigger and better life. Move forward. Take the high road. It sounds like you are able to think while the swirl of emotions and reactions and terrible situations are around you. Think things through and be your own best and supportive friend. Reaching out in this forum shows that you are capable of this. Sounding it out with others to get a better view at your situation is a good thing. Take it a step further and talk to someone who you respect and who you get support from.
Giving up only gives more pain and sorrow for you and everyone you care about and who cares about you. Your godmother will need courage, support and love. Just as you do now and that, it sounds like, is what you want and need right now. You will need each other to give both of you a chance to survive. When you are giving up on yourself, you are giving up on others who care about you. No, you aren't alone. It just feels that way.
Option 2 please. You need someone to talk to as it is loads around you at the moment. And you need to get better again. It is a stupid illness which makes us nasty and rude. I have the same symptomps :(. Unfortunately the rest of the world can't get it. You see you are not alone! :)
Go back to your pdoc to start again on meds.
Pregnancy can still wait. I had my son when I was 42 after years of trying and an ectopic pregnancy . So miracles happen. But you have to be well first. Marie