I have been having thoughts of hurting myself (not to be confused with suicidal thoughts which I have to a lesser degree). I have gone so far as to pick up a knife but then I "came back to reality" and put it down. This has been going on for the last couple of days. So far I have been able to deal with the thoughts and not hurt myself. My husband thinks I belong in the hospital. I don't want to go! I go see my pdoc today at four. I was scheduled for Friday, but they had a cancellation. I am hoping she can help without putting me in the hospital. I really need something for anxiety. I've been having a lot of that lately because Social Security is reviewing my case to see if I am still disabled. If they say I'm not, I lose all benefits! Income, health insurance, meds, everything. Anyway, I don't have a question, just looking for some support, I guess. Just needed to get this out. Thanks for listening.