inside my head

[em869]

I cant seem to associate what's going on around me as bring reality. Its really hard to describe, but weeks can go by and i seem to be caught up in thoughts in my head, but the thoughts in my head are all tangled. I can be raging at something on the news for example, to the point that i shake, and half an hour later i don't even care, and i get embarrassed about having been so angry and i cry about it. I don't make sense, even to me. I want to do so much, buy new clothes, get tattoos, be beautiful, laugh uncontrollably, but at the same time i want to cry and bury myself so noone can see me. I'm not even making sense writing this...im just so anxious and irritated and enthusiastic and tired and omg, just tell me how i can find a minute peace someone?

[r8rsgrl]

    I agree with ILADVOCATE. The best thing to do at this point is see a psychiatrist and be very honest.

[ILADVOCATE]

  This type of concern can occur in a mixed state where
a person is experiencing a variety of mood changes at once
A person can feel the down quality of depression but the sped
up quality of mania at the same time and feel like they are angry
at the world. In rapid cycling a person can shift from manic to depressed
and the reverse within a very short time frame.
  However only a psychiatrist could provide  a  specific  diagnosis but
it would be worth seeing one. The mood tracker feature
can be helpful to see what is happening on a daily basis.
Then you can print out the results for a psychiatrist