Hi, I agree with LCC. Change your pdoc, it sounds like he/she is stuck on your original diagnosis and isn't interested in investigating further. It does sound like you are experiencing mood swings and the fact that you are self harming and self medicating are serious issues that need a good pdoc.
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Thank you very much for your response LLC. Oh btw, the paranoia that I have is one of the worst symptoms.
Personally I would see a new pdoc. If that doctor hasn't figured out what's going on in that period of time, if you fully disclosed your mood swings and abusing meds. We can't diagnose you here, BUT going to a new pdoc will certainly help I think. If you ever get to the point of self harm again, it's important you to your local ER, you will be seen by a different pdoc. I saw a pdoc for a total of 3 yrs, and not once did he diagnose me BP, with me disclosing suicidal ideations, serious anxiety, self isolation and at times a bit paranoid(I thought I would lose my job all the time) , and a very very close call suicide attempt. They asked me I wanted to go back to my old pdoc, Hell No!
I never even passed my mind I might be BP, but in the end I'm glad I did, I'm more stable then I have been in years. I'm on a better med, not an anti-depressant, something to help with my serious anxiety and hypomania. Personally the easiest way to get help is go to the ER. I was told otherwise, it might take 6 months, and I knew I didn't have six months.
So my suggestion do what you have to do, to get the help, you'll be glad you did, regardless of the diagnosis, there are so many different diagnoses in Mood Disorders, I wouldn't guess until you've seen a shrink.
Keep in touch,
LCC