why do i do crazy things?

[chiefpie]

i have a wonderful wife and daughter , but just when things are going well, i tend to screw up big time losing their trust.
why is it that i cant stay on the right path? like not to cheat or party.

[chiefpie]

thank-you and i do have bipolar and ptsd and add and anxiety disorder

[Xila31]

Well, I don't know if you are diagnosed with bipolar or not as you do not say. One of the problems with bipolar is poor judgement and risky behavior patterns.

As for poor judgement, I think both in mania and depression cycles it is hard to see the truth of the situation or the people you are with. Something seems like a really great idea, but then it isn't. Also with things like grandios thinking during mania, something that seems like it will be life changing for the better, but really it is not and messes things up.

Some peole with risky behavior patterns have problems like spending sprees, gambling, extra-marital affairs to high sex drive, drugs, alcohol, and so on. The only way to stop these things is to get treatment with meds and with cognitive therapy and try to find stability.

For finding the right path to treatment you need to talk to your psychiatrist. If you don't have one, you need to find one. If you do have one and you're on treatment currently, then let them know it is not working. These types of behaviors will ruin your marriage even though they are caused by bipolar. Just because, for example, you cheat and say "I'm sorry, it was because I was in mania," that doesn't mean it hurts your wife any less. For this I would say your wife should also have therapy and maybe the two of you should have couples therapy. If you really want to get on the right path, I think that is the best avenue.