Unable to answer questions without searching my mind for hours. As far back as I know, since my early 20's I have been unable to recall conversations. My kids would always say we had a conversation and I would not recall any of them. I would tell them to talk to me when I am awake and I would remember. Since then throughout my life, there would be similar situations, and if I did not recall, I would not speak, and would just blow it off as everyone else having a problem. Over the past 6 months, I have been having blocks of time taken from me. I realize when I came back, that I have been away for an unknown amount of time and I wonder, where was I? I argue with people at work about changes that have been made, my co-workers tell me that I was the one who suggested the change, but I have no recollection of this. This problem has impacted my productivity at work and I am not sure how to fix it. I have been depressed for some time, but try to keep this from others. I have periods of time, with paranoia for unknown reasons, I feel that people whom I normally have positive conversations with at work, periodically have negative thoughts against me, I am afraid to be recognized by them and afraid they may acknowledge my presence. I am unsure why these feelings take over me.