My son is a great child. Maybe not the most quiet but he has adhd so its to be expected. A few months ago i found history on the laptop that he had been searching for pornography. We had a talk about it and he said he was just curious. I was devastated and didnt know what to do. I am a single mother and have not had a boyfriend or anything in the house or watched movies with sexual content before in front of him. He had been only able to watch disney and nickolodean. His father remarried a few months ago and he had been spending time there. I asked if he had watched sex there he had said no nor had he heard it. I let the incident go with a stern warning and blocked the laptop so it wasnt able to search for anything else.
A few months later I caught him with a friend watching pornography and kissing the other boys privates. After screaming a small bit i was able to ask what happened. He said that he hadnt been able to get the idea from his head and found the pornography on the on demand (which i had never thought to block as I dont normally watch television) And they were reenacting what was on the screen.The boy that was over was a few years younger and I was to ashamed to tell his mother which i know is a bad but i couldnt do anything else. Well weeks later the mother called and said that her child was doing something and said that they had seen it on a movie here.. and I didnt have the heart to say what else occurred.. I feel like i am raising a sexual molester. I dont know how to talk to him. I can barely look at him. I want to kill myself is it my fault will he be a horrible person or is this behavior normal? I know alot of the shame is my fault..