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Suisidal about gagging (after a cold)

I came down with a cold on Thurdsay 6th December 2007, then on the Tuesday I woke up when i felt myself being sick, although i wasn't sick, i just kept retching and gagging. I'm sure it was because i'd swallowed alot of phlegm in the night, it happend once before 8 years ago but i was ok by the afternoon.
On that Tuesday afternoon though, i started coughing, it was a really horrible cough that wouldn't go away until i was sik with clear phlegm.
Then on the Friday it happend again. Now, for the past 5 days i've woken up feeling really sik, and keep gagging, (although i'm not actually being sik) only now the horrible phlegm and sik feeling is lasting all day.
I have to sleep sitting up (otherwise my throat get really clogged with thick phlegm), which is very uncomfortable and I am hardly sleeping now because i feel so sick and keep having panic attacks.

I've been ill for 6 years with an eating disorder, brought on by my fear of being sik, (i only eat toast, sandwiches and breakaway biscuits because they are my "safe foods", its been that was since 2001) so right now i'm living through my worst nightmare.
In the past 6 years to present, i''ve had agoraphobia and social phobia (and other mental health issues), I was battling hard (and winning) to overcome these fears, but now i'm right back to square 1, being stuck in bed all day, not going out, not seeing anyone. It's putting a huge amount of pressure on my relationship with my boyfriend because although we live together, we aren't spending time together because i'm in bed all day, and he's having to make my breakfast, dinner ect.

I don't have anyother symptoms except the phlegm in my throat (which is clear and thin, sometimes it's abit thick). If i swallow it it makes me sik, if i try to cough it up, especially in the mornings and in the night it can make me gag and retch. Rarely feel abit of a runny nose. No sore throat or any cold syptoms.

Even if i don't cough, i still gag ad wretch. I'm having all the feelings and actions of being sick but nothing is actually coming out.

I'm so desperate for help, i'm feeling so suisidal right now, I always said if I was ever sick that i would kill myself because thats how huge my fear is, .please can someone give me any answers and advice on how to stop to gagging and nausea.
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Wow, I am so sorry you went through that.  I am also phobic about gagging/throwing up.  Last year after what I thought was a cold, I had a voracious coughing attack that ended with dry heaves.  This year, I had the flu and again as I was thinking I was getting better I had another severe coughing attack that ended in gagging.  Last year I tried antihistamines and decongestants and nothing prevented it.  This year the nurse at my doctor's office suggested taking something for heartburn like prevacid or zantac.  I tried that and again it didn't work.  I live in fear of having another attack and if I had a million dollars, would gladly give it to whoever could tell me how to stop it from ever happening again.  I haven't been suicidal because I know there are medicines my doctor can give me so I won't care, but I prefer not to have to take them as they all have their own side effects.  Your attacks sound more severe though were you checked out for whooping cough (pertussis)?  I know if you're like me you're probably to scared to even go to the doctor's office when it happens.  I wish there were still doctors who made house calls.  I told my husband if it happens again to take me to the emergency room.  

Ps. For those of you who have an extreme fear of throwing up, there may be a reason.  Many metabolic/mitochondrial disorders are worsened by illness and throwing up.  You may have an undiagnosed disorder contributing to your fear.  I have a carnitine deficiency that was unidentified for 40 years.  I'm undergoing further testing to see if there is an underlying metabolic problem.
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Wow, I am so sorry you went through that.  I am also phobic about gagging/throwing up.  Last year after what I thought was a cold, I had a voracious coughing attack that ended with dry heaves.  This year, I had the flu and again as I was thinking I was getting better I had another severe coughing attack that ended in gagging.  Last year I tried antihistamines and decongestants and nothing prevented it.  This year the nurse at my doctor's office suggested taking something for heartburn like prevacid or zantac.  I tried that and again it didn't work.  I live in fear of having another attack and if I had a million dollars, would gladly give it to whoever could tell me how to stop it from ever happening again.  I haven't been suicidal because I know there are medicines my doctor can give me so I won't care, but I prefer not to have to take them as they all have their own side effects.  Your attacks sound more severe though were you checked out for whooping cough (pertussis)?  I know if you're like me you're probably to scared to even go to the doctor's office when it happens.  I wish there were still doctors who made house calls.  I told my husband if it happens again to take me to the emergency room.  

Ps. For those of you who have an extreme fear of throwing up, there may be a reason.  Many metabolic/mitochondrial disorders are worsened by illness and throwing up.  You may have an undiagnosed disorder contributing to your fear.  I have a carnitine deficiency that was unidentified for 40 years.  I'm undergoing further testing to see if there is an underlying metabolic problem.
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242516 tn?1368223905
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if you've been sick for a month, ask your boyfriend to do something better than cooking for you in bed...  have him bring you to a doctor!
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183933 tn?1290216962
Just wanted to let you know that I have a huge fear of throwing up as well. I've been this way since I was a little girl. I'm 29 now. I hate going out in the winter months because that's when I know the stomach bug is going around. I've never been suicidal over it though. You should talk to someone about that. I would also go to the store and get something to dry you out so you don't have so much phlem. Good luck and I hope you feel better soon. Just wanted you to know you are not alone in being scared of gagging/throwing up.

Carisa
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354236 tn?1196902187
Yes please let me know. I really do hope I can help. Before I started with the allergy meds. I couldn't stand my life, because I was so misserable. So give it a shot atleast take them for a few days and let me know.
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Thank you for your reply. I drink water all day anyway, well diluted fruit and barley drink.
I'll will look in to alergry meds, and i'll also try and fully clean our bedroom and keep it aired.

I'll let you know how I get on xxx
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354236 tn?1196902187
water, drink water. That will help brake that stuff up. I'm not a Dr. but have the same problem that you're going through. Have you ever had a allergy test done? That's my problem, go to the store and get some over the counter allergy meds. claritin or something. Not cold and sinus, or allergy; just an allergy med. I say try this med. because it helped me and when I went to the Dr. he said that since it's winter time, if you have an allergy to dust then you're in trouble since your house is locked up with no windows open; all that dust is just hanging in your house.  I still get that gagging phlem but after I take my allergy meds. it does dry up and go away. I'm telling ya girl, just try it cause you don't need to be stuck in your bed, and in missery all day. You can also google..."types of allrgies and the symptoms" that will help you if you don't want to got to the Dr.
Good Luck, and please let me know!!!
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I havent had much on an appetite for 3 weeks, i was really back the Tuesday i was sik for nearly a week, i'm still struggling to eat thoguh, might be just down to panic, but even if i'm not particulaly panicy i still struggle. I have to break off the tiniest pieces of bread. Having the eating disorder though, and loss of appetite, is very worrying and making me feel hunry which makes me feel ill aswell.

On the Monday (day before i was sik) i was sneezing loads all day, which i thought had caused all the phlegm, but i haven't been like that or had any more cold syptooms since about the 12th of December.
I've tried drinking apple juice because i read that breaks up phlegm but so far it hasn't worked.
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