27yo male here. 2 or so years ago I had my first anxiety issue. Anxiety attacks, but not panic attacks. I never had it before so I assumed I was literally going crazy. It was horrible. Yet, a few months later they stopped.
I've had bouts of anxiety on and off since then, usually enough to make me consider medication, but then it eases up before I make the decision. One weird thing is I get anxiety around people I love like my mother, and even have negative thoughts about them, almost like Im trying to make myself feel bad. They're nothing but great to me. Still I haven't had anything severe since 2 years ago. No attacks or worrying, But lots of analyzing "what if" scenarios.
I have a good few hours of energy and happiness each day but like a light switch I will instantly become depressed and empty, not sad.
I suspect a lot of this is from working night shift during the winter, as well as pending relationship and career changes I havent resolved, but I still recall having random anxiety during the summer with no life issues. Although, when I was working out a lot for 6 months I don't remember this issue.
I started on Lexapro yesterday for my depression and only took one 5mg dose. I woke up nauseated, dizzy, pupils dilated and having panic attacks. I went from feeling happy to full panic attack back and forth. I was wide awake. Trying to sleep gave me weird closed eyed imaginations and racing thoughts, which I have had with anxiety attacks before. At work later everything looked different. I didn't like looking at people. This honestly felt like the come up of a hallucinogenic drug and a bad trip. Still, 24 hours after taking, I feel better. But I wonder if that's because the drug is wearing off
I'm scared to take this again honestly. I'd almost rather try going back to the gym, quitting as needed Adderall, and saving these for if that all doesn't work. Mild depression was better than horrible anxiety.
What should I do?