Hi everyone, I am new to this forum, but I was just wonder if someone can help me.
Lately I have been a very selfish person, sometimes I cant even believe things that comes out of my mouth. Im not sure, why i have been acting this way, holding grudges against people, kinda keeping score of things. Thats not me, sometimes i think I just got tired of being nice and been taking advantage of. I ve always had many people around me, they were not necessarily "friends" but I can def say that I have been a very social person, always tried to help people whenever I could always going out my way to please others and turns out that whenever I needed I had nobody, I mean nobody to count on. well shouldnt say nobody,( my husband has always been there for me.) but besides him, I had no friends, no family to go to. I always thought it s better to help than ask for help, but the times that I ve asked for help, it seems like everyone was too busy. So I ve decided to change the way that i behave with others, which is causing these horrible conflict in my mind. My husband its extremely supportive but sometimes, I even think its too much on him. I kinda take all the rage, and disappointment that I have on him i keep going back and forth telling him, how much we have helped " this person" and now he wouldnt even call to see how we are doing...things like that. I have always done things without expecting things back. but now I feel like " what about me? who thinks about me" . I dont wanna to turn into this horrible/misersable person... please any input will be appreciate...thanks