am i crazy ?

[armira]

i want to know does it happened to anyone unrecognizeing yourself or your members family.that's happening to me now and im terrified,i dont know them voice,them faces,everything looks stranger ,oh my God im going crazy,,,,,,,,,,,im in meds  Zyprexa,Fluoxetine,Demetrin....but nothing seems to help,what to do :'( i really feel im a insane

[ninasg61]

HI ARMIRA ,hun are u still there? Iam on ur said i know what your talking about , but one think u most do think about all the family and freinds who love u ,,and ur mom and dad..please call 911 go to the Hospital few days when ur out ,ull see your going to be glad ur a live ,  ITS NOT YOU TIME GOD BLESS U I LOVE U...Nina.

[nursegirl6572]

Hon, YOU have to help yourself, we can only do so much.  You haven't even given the medications a chance, AND you need therapy, badly.  Have you pursued that?

I told you before about certain books I would recommend....here they are, I suggest you get them and start reading them.  One is "The Anxiety and Phobia Workbook", and ANY book by Claire Weekes.  Excellent books about anxiety.  

I strongly advise you tell your parents how you're feeling and how desperate you've become.  You may need to seek urgent help.  You may even require a brief hospitalization to get you some more aggresive care, get the meds straight, and start therapy.  Don't do anything rash....if you feel you may, seek help immeidately.

[armira]

im so sad :'''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''(   i dont want to live anymore,i have no reason :''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''( damn life i hate i hate i hate i hate i hate i hate i hate i hate i hate  i hate i hateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee everythingggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.i give up, i dont wanna be here even for a minute :@ Im sorry i write here but its the only way that someone listened me .im sorry that i took your times rode my posts.thank you for your support and all ur advice u gave to me,thank u for everything

[armira]

of course i agree with all of you,and im trying,fighting with allllll my soul,but that seems to be stronger than me.every two days i go at university with buss and its hell everywhere i go.i bought books about this from Norman Vincente Peale and Lynda Field but im really in a deep black hole.im trying everyday to go on,i try to make my thoughts more positive but they are my obsession i can not make them go away,its like i have no force to change them.i swear by God im suffering to much :'( Hell could not be different like it is Now im living it.thank you  for all your advices

[4Maddie44]

I know you are disappointed because the diagnosis the doctor gave you and the medication he prescribed don't seem to be what you hoped for.  I know you seem to disagree with everything we have been telling you for weeks.

I get the impression you do not read what we tell you, or you don't want to believe it.  I think we have tried to help you so much, but you have set your mind on what is wrong with you, and believe nobody, not us, not the doctor.  

I feel there is little more that we on this forum can do for you.  We go over and over the same thing.  I am very sorry but remember we have all been there.  Nursegirl tells you she was there and came through, but you won't believe her.  You just go on saying the same thing.

Take your medication, and then keep your next appointment with the doctor, then come back and tell us how you feel.
Meantime I think it is a waste you coming on here and not listening to us.

[RainLover71]

Please seek the help you need because you are suffering so much.We want to help you but it begins with you.Make it happen--you are so young--you have your whole life ahead of you.

[nursegirl6572]

Hon, go back and read the MANY MANY posts where we discussed all of this.  You are suffering from derealization and/or depersonalization, which are common side effects of anxiety, more specifically, panic.  You JUST started the meds a few days ago, we've told you this takes TIME.

Have you even TRIED any of the suggestions we've given you to start changing your negative thinking?  I've told you at least three times, about you needing to buy a few books to read at home...you never answered me about that.  You could already be reading those books, empowering yourself.

You're never going to get better because you don't even TRY.  We can keep reassuring you and telling you the same thing over and over, but we're always going to tell you that you have to help yourself as well.  No one can do that for you.

You really need to decide whether or not you're going to fight this...and if you are,...start doing whatever it takes.  Remember, I was IN your shoes before, if not worse, because I had a child while going through this.  I fought, I got help, and with some time and patience, I am not in that hell anymore.

One of my favorite sayings from a close friends of mine here on MH....it's so true..."nothing changes if nothing changes".

It's extremely frustrating to see someone stay stuck in the same cycle, without even trying.  You took the first step and went to the doctor, which is great...but you've second guessed EVERYTHING about that...from the diagnosis to the meds.  

[xJuliax]

Im really sad that happens to you.I hope meds will help you,but yet I hope its just because you have been stressed,I wish you luck! I hope you will tell me what happened after the appointment.

[armira]

im 22 and i was in depression,anxiety ,panic disorder and lataely i think in depersonality about my thoughts i wrote up there.but i really dont know why its happening this ,i feel im loosing my control and my touch  with reality.at Saturday i had an appointment and i hope those meds  will help me but i dont know,im hopeless i can get better and have a normal life.Unknowing my family who grew me up its the WORST feel  that a human can have it.

[xJuliax]

Don't be afraid, I think that is just because maybe lately you've been stressed.Just pull yourself together and relax. By the way,how long is this happening and how old are you?
x0x0 Julia :)