Am I depressed? Please help

[BollyWobble]

I am 13 years old, and ever since last year I have begun to feel depressed. It only occurred to me a while ago, and the relationship between my parents is bad. I can not talk to them about it because my mum doesn't believe teenagers can get depressed. To get straight to the point, I have had suicidal thoughts, but have not been able to really do it, but have come so close. The only joy I get is from my friends, but I have been feeling like I am ugly, stupid and useless. I am constantly thinking that my family would prefer if I just killed myself. I never let out my emotions though, I write them down, I play sport, that is how I get rid of the emotions. I feel hopeless, like there is no light at the end of the tunnel, that if I killed myself no one would notice. I don't cut myself, I know someone that does and it's not something that I would do. I need to have an answer since I can't talk to my parents about this, am I depressed or is this just a teenage thing?

[crankbonkers]

Parents will not believe about the teenagers depression. Develop an habit of doing exercises regularly and develop an habit of talking to other people. It protects you from depression and allows you to lead a healthy life.

[caringmomma]

I agree, sometimes talking to parents is not the easiest thing in the world but talking to some other adult can help.  Teenage years are  so full of everything, but being depressed is a possibility.  Everything that you described sounds like depression so I strongly advise you to seek help.  

[MYoungAtHeart]

A lot of times there is an adult who is not a member of your family who you might feel comfortable with sharing your feelings....I am thinking of a school counselor, or a fav teacher, a coach or even another parent of one of your friends.  If they are working in any capacity with teens your age, then they know that depression at 13 is a real malady and not take it personally like I think your parents are doing...

I like that you are involved in sports, the activity will help you burn off energy and the peer group is excellent at your age.  Many many of your friends might be going through the same sadness and symptoms and if you have been standing back and watching the group you already know who is like you and who might be a real ally to you.

I am concerned about your suicidal thoughts.  I know you said they are only thoughts at this point, but please please, reach out and talk to someone or even call a 1 800 hotline.

I do wish the very best to you
and hope to hear from you that
you are doing and feeling better
in the near future...

M