Oh my, that's new info that your husband totally isolates you like that. And yet he is gone for 14 hours! You sound torn with loving him and hating this life. But emotionally abusive people find someone to be with that have their own issues (this is said with compassion) that don't allow them to be in healthy relationships. This is a dance that two people do together, both with dysfunctional habits and thinking. I do think too, sadly, often women feel trapped. If you could snap your fingers tomorrow, either you gaga or you twin, would you be living without your partners?
What kind of counseling do you do? I am trying to remember from your other post what was said about this. That seems a very important emotional outlet and way to get clarity on this situation.
It takes a good long time to get over loss of a pet and especially when that pet filled a void for us. hugs
So, how are you doing? How are things with your husband after a few days? I've been thinking about you.
As I suggested, this isn't really about the dog. The dog has brought this to a head. I have no idea what actually happened. My comments were based on the condition of your dog, which suggested the kind of deterioration dogs suffer when they start to die. But the more this thread goes on, the more the focus in on the relationship you have with your husband and the relationship you have with your life. You're in a very tough situation. As Mom said, it is very weird if your husband has not comforted you or expressed any understanding of your loss. It's one thing that he may have made a mistake. It's another to be cold. If your version is accurate, and we haven't heard from the other party to this, then we can't pretend to be able to fix this for you but you sound like a couple that grew together because you each liked that the other brought something very different to the relationship and now that the relationship is mature those differences have become more of a separating force. You say you still love your husband and it sounds like he still loves you, but you are maturing in very different ways. Do you think couples therapy might force you both to confront the issues that are dividing you and, if both of you truly want the marriage to last, move some distance back toward one another? I mean, personally, you don't make him sound very likeable. Again, I don't have his side of the story and there's probably a lot more to this than you're putting on here, a marriage has so many parts to it. But if it has driven you to self-destructive habits and to putting your entire home life to your dogs because you don't feel like you can give it to him anymore, that's a considerable problem. My Dad was a very liberal guy until life got hard for him with wives dying on him, and he became very conservative and narrow. My sister converted to a rigid form of Christianity and became hostile to anyone who believed otherwise. As people age, some get more and more conservative and bitter in every way about things and very rigid, while others open up. People are different. Your husband sounds like he has been successful financially and has a lot to lose now he didn't have when you got married. But if he's really cocooning you as you describe and you're flowering with your renewed studies, well, something has to give. You need to talk. To one another. I wish we could offer more substance here, but you can see we do feel with you.
Sweetie, this all makes sense. Anger and underlying hostility can cause things like the need to shop and eat to wall ourselves in and bury these emotions. Have you told your husband how furious you are.? How hurt? How betrayed? What he did was hurtful.
Our dog ca run. Our dog is very attached to me. Loves our family all but loves me best and openly shows that. If I'm not home, she hides. It drives my husband nuts. But when we got her, I was grieving and she was my bandaid baby. And she has a personality quirk where she is anxious so it was a perfect match for her to trust me the most from then on. Anyway, I get on him if he doesn't leash her to take her out in case she runs. And he's gone against that a few times. But once he sees her running, he panics and moves quickly to rectify the situation. A. he doesn't want anything to happen to our family pet. And B. he knows the wrath of ME if something were to happen on his watch and by his carelessness that I've warned him about . . . he doesn't want that on HIM. I find your husband's actions after this quite odd. Like this was a hostile act towards you. Christians are supposed to be compassionate, aren't they? yeesh.
But I'd not let it fester inside as that could lead to the spending/eating. The 'why the heck NOT go shopping' when you have rage and anger inside will happen. Alcoholics often anger their partners purposefully so as to give themselves a reason (in their minds only) to drink. It's a classic pattern. So, this is not your situation but the same in that when we are angry and hurt, we tend to go for our drugs of choice more (for you shopping and eating). So, tell him how you feel. And how hurt you are. Not with YOU statements like you did this or you always do that but I FEEL X. Usually works better to not make the other person defensive.
It's almost like these kinds of actions take a bite out of our positive feelings for something, or a piece of our love dies. AT least that is how I envision it. Someone did something to me once. I never got over it. I loved that person but on that day . . . that bit was taken, that piece died. And it never was quite the same. Not a marital partner but a person I care about. I hope this isn't like that for you but with piece after piece dying, eventually, we are left with an empty heart for them.
Do you feel like your partner doesn't 'get' you at all?
I'm just going to say that I think you have EVERY right to be furious with your husband. His actions were irresponsible. And maybe the dog died of natural causes but so what . . . he died alone in someone else's yard rather than natural causes at your house. And it would be quite the coincidence that natural causes would take him ironically when he's lost and probably confused. So, I get your anger. I really do. I'd have a real trust issue with someone that lacked that kind of respect to your wishes or caring for your dog!
On the other hand, I doubt that your husband had at idea his laziness or irresponsibility would result in this kind of situation. He's probably as shocked as you. Is he contrite? Is he sad?
How is the rest of your relationship?
12 is young for a yorkie, isn't it? My little dogs lived until 17 and 18 years old. Little dogs can live a long time. So, I am sure you feel ripped off from a couple more years.
I lost a dog and many will say you need to get over it, it's just a dog. No. They are our family. It hurts and you miss them something fierce. We did take the route of immediately putting a band aid on it and getting a puppy. We were just so sad when we lost our dog . . . the puppy helped us. I adore her now. Truly. Adore her. Now, my sister is one who can't stand the thought of another pet right away. So, that's individual. But give yourself some time and know that mourning and grief are terrible but you begin to feel better as tine goes on.
But I think you husband owes you an explanation. And a massive apology. So very sorry.
First, it sounds like your dog died of natural causes unless there's more to this story, and your dog died being outside, on an adventure your dog chose by escaping your yard, which is where dogs truly belong and feel the most like dogs. A couple of years ago my dog died underneath the dining room table near her food bowl. I felt bad because by the time I found her -- my wife and I thought she was sleeping -- she had been dead awhile, because rigor mortis was already setting in. She was 16 years old and I felt really bad I wasn't there when she died, but I was also really happy she had such a peaceful death in a place she loved to be. Like your dog, she was old and ill, 16 years old. Dogs die when they get to the point your dog was at, and to die in that natural way rather than in a more suffering way might just be a blessing for your dog. Now, about your husband -- he didn't go this so your dog would die. Unless your dog had a habit of escaping your yard, in which case you're both at fault for not make your yard escape proof, you husband didn't know it would lead to this. If he hadn't let the dog out, the dog likely would have died in your house but as you describe your dog it was time to go. So I guess I have to ask, at a time when your husband and you should be your greatest support in the grieving, you're angry at him. We all make mistakes but everyone and every living thing dies. So I guess I have to ask this, are there problems in your relationship with your husband that is deflecting your grief into anger at him? Is something else going on that makes this especially hard to get your mind around? Because no matter where or when your dog died, it was going to hurt, and for a long time probably.