I may be overreacting, but I think there is something wrong with me mentally

[CrimsonDeo]

hello all,

I believe that there is something wrong with me. I feel that my mind has not been functioning normally with the current depression that I'm coping with . I've been through plenty of  depressions and its triggered mostly by my experiences as a child. Its just that this time around, it seems like different things are happening to me. There are points in my day where I'm energetic and ready to go about my day, but recently I've been getting really tired. I'll wake up after eight hours and sleep another eight hours. My mood has also seen some drastic changes that I don't usually exhibit beyond a very select few. As of late, I've become very irritable and going through emotions like I never have before. I'm an artist, painting and drawing have become virtually impossible at times because of the sudden change in the way I'm feeling.  please for the sake of my artwork, help me out. Thank you for your time

[jonbonjovi58]

Hi Deo

Please forgive me but I don't know where half my messages go..................??
I am pleased you got self healing, gosh that is something special going on there.  I am a wiccan but been off sick for 6 months so missed out on alot of self healing workshops.  I'm not that good at art I just think I am.  I hear you talk about depression but no one would suspect would they?  We have to mask ourselves sometimes don't we so the outside world can't see us or our pain (why should they?) counselling did help me I must admit.  Sometimes I talk to myself and guess what I get answers.

Thanks for saying you would help me with art queries, I do appreciate it.  I am recovering too well it seems.  My voice is so strong people can't believe I had an op last week.  Flipping ek, sometimes I can't believe it.

You take care Deo  
Bev from Nottingham UK

[needhelp4me434]

are you on any meds?

[CrimsonDeo]

Thank you for replying! its nice to have someone to relate to. You are by no means prying into anything my dear. It's almost like you know me to some extent.

I've gone about the whole counseling thing. It helped me a lot and I'm a better person today because of it. I feel that this is something much different and just isn't a normal depression. There have been changes in the way I think, move and just function. It most certainly doesn't feel like me anymore. I want to say that have a mental disorder, but I don't want to believe it.

I'm glad to hear that your heart surgery has gone well. I also had a heart defect when I was younger. There was a hole in one of my chambers, though I never got surgery for it because my parents couldn't afford such a thing; so I felt it and it gradually healed. I hope you have a strong recovery.

I don't know how much I could help with art therapy, but if you need assistance with anything concerning the art field let me know; I have some knowledge at about it. I must thank you for your time replying to this, because you seem like you care and these days there aren't many people that do.

thanks,

Deo

P.S. I painted my portrait picture. :)

[jonbonjovi58]

Hi there

I hear what you are saying.  I note the content about your childhood.  It seems to me that you are exhausted after a nights restful (if any) sleep.  I don't mean to pry in your business but I can almost relate to some of your anxieties.  When an adult talks about childhood trauma's this can affect the adulthood it is like your child is within you and you can't help him.  

I have done 3 years psychotherapy training but did not want to pursue the dissertation mainly because I found out in Feb 09 I had a heart defect.  Anyway I had my surgery Tuesday 7th July 09 and still recovering.  Your email touched me.  Counselling can work I think more gestalt counselling this enables a person to let out anger especially childhood anger.  It could release some of your childhood anxieties.

You speak about art to support you.  I am seeking a humanistic person centred art therapy course to compliment my knowledge in psychotherapy.  Colours and imagination are a great way to express yourself.  Don't thank me for my time thank you for being open and honest to the world.  That is a start.

Take care