I am a 34 year old disabled mom of 5 children. I have 3 boys, ages 15, 10, and 6. I also have twin 6 month old girls. My husband and I have been married almost 12 years. I have been diagnosed with Bipolar II, with severe depression. I also have PTSD, GAD with panic and agoraphobia. I have not been dealing with this well. I can barely leave the house. I can't work. I am trying to get SSI, but in the meantime it is difficult to make ends meet on just what my husband makes. I have no energy, and because of that my house is a wreck. I can barely find the energy to put my bra on in the morning or get something to eat before 7pm. My doc has been bouncing me from one medicine to another and it is really making it difficult to function. By the time I get used to one medication, he changes it. So, then I have to withdraw and start getting used to another. I started taking Celexa over a year ago, and this doctor actually took the time to get with my cardiologist and found out that the Celexa is interacting with my heart medicine. So, that is why he is changing me to Paxil. And I can't afford therapy and I have agoraphobia to the point that I cannot call to find a therapist I can afford. I could go to one once an appt is set up (might have to sit in the car for a while to get up the nerve to go in....) but I just can't call them! I am so screwed up!