I have been married to my childhood sweetheart for 9 years , he is a transgender and an acholic. He spends money all the time and I feel like we are going to lose our home. I am very ill and work a part time job. However, I don't make the money he does and I have a lot of medical bills. We have slept in different rooms for over a year. It is more important for him to be a women instead of my spouse. I have no where to go and it seems like my situation is never going to get better. I drag my self to work everyday, for what. I truly don't know what to do. He has be emotionally, physically and mentality abusive. My name is on the mortgage, I have medical bills and credit card bills. I just don't know why I'm here. I have to be fake all the time, to customers, my family and I'm just sick of it all. I thought being 47 I should be living my life instead of wishing I would just die.