I would like to thank you all for your helpful comments - I will keep you posted. Your information has been very helpful and uplifting to know that I don't have to do this all on my own. Apparently the psych clinic is having an intake meeting tomorrow to see whether they will accept me on their list and assign me a mental health nurse/ councillor - everything seems to take so long - even if I am able to use medication it will take weeks to take effect and if I am lucky enough to ever see a psyiatrist or psychologist ??? - the system here is not good - the only reason i was helped so quickly last time was because I tried suicide before I let anyone know how I was feeling. This time I am asking for help but there seems to be no urgency in giving it - I am trying to keep a positive outlook but it sometimes feels like it isn't worth the effort
Also I'm sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine what you're going through and you must be really strong to have made it this far.
Many GPs don't look at suicide as a serious health hazard even though it is a leading form of death here in the US. If you weren't on proper medication for your Long QT they would take that seriously. Similarly if you aren't on proper depression meds you could die and they should take that seriously.
Anyway I agree with the above you need to find a psychiatrist. Keep posting here too. Good luck.
You need to transfer finding out what you can take from a gp to a psychiatrists. Also, if you have heart problems, you can explain to your local pharmacist and ask what antidepressant could be used if any with this problem. The pharmacist will know which antidepressant will cause heart problems if not immediately, give him/her a day or two to check. Then go back to your dr. But seriously, its like playing with fire when you go with a mental disorder or emotional disorder to your local gp. I know, it cost me most many years ago when I trusted my gp.
I know how you feel. I have a heart condition as well and suffer from anxiety and depression for my entire life. I dropped dead at home 4 years ago (sudden death) but was revived by the EMT's...I always prayed I'd die this way and had it robbed from me. My wife doesn't feel the same way :-)
I had to come off one of my antidepressants but have had other meds pick up the slack.
Perhaps I'm not the one to say 'don't give up' but the afterlife will be here soon enough, and once we're there there's no turning back.
Somethings carried you forward this far in life. Return to the approach that's worked in the past and hang on to it as long as you can. Best Wishes.