not being taken seriously

[SamAE]

I've been told that sometimes it often takes more than one therapist to see til you really find one...well I finanlly found what I thought was a good one cuz it's at this big psych place basically around here. Turns out that "biggness" makes those psychiatrists very...crappy I guess. I felt like I was talking to a transcriber...writing everything I was saying...cut me off when I was still talking..& he basically gave me 20 min to explain whatever I had to say. I felt like I had to be screaming & psychotic just to get some attention.

I was REALLY irritated by how much time I wasted there (i was in the waiting room an hr after my set appt time) I left work to go there. So I just..i don't wanna say lost it. But I could feel myself wanting to cry as I scheduled my next appt so when I finished I basically ran out of there...opened the door to my car threw my purse in my car & my papers too & just screamed at the top of my lungs.
I ended up going to the counseling ctr to get more info cuz they didn't give me n e thing useful & I was able to see someone within 5 min.
I was able to calm down but...stuff like this happens often...one thing can irritate me & for the rest of the day no one can say n e thing that MIGHT be taken the wrong way to me without me either busting out in tears or just snapping on them & cussing at them.

I was taking 7.5 mgs of buspar in the am & pm (it was a beginning dose cuz after 2 weeks I was suppose to go to 15 mgs) I got minor dizzy spells that would literally feel like my brain was being rattled. & I was slightly groggy at school...not tired just groggy. & these sympoms were worse when I went to 15. The first day I did I had to leave school after I took my test cuz I could BARELY stay awake..i just took a nap in my car cuz I couldn't make it back home (mind you I don't sleep very well at night n e ways so that probably didn't help)

I could tell a difference when on it but the effects weren't worth it...im just back to being...overly anxious to where I don't feel emotionally stable most days. I still take 100 mgs of wellbutrin twice a day & it's improved my depression GREATLY...before I wouldn't even wanna get out of my car to go to school cuz I woke up in a fog.

now it's just that something so minor can rise my anxiety so high to where I freak out & I can't stop crying but I'm mad at the same time..i don't even know if this makes n e sense. But I don't feel like n e one is taking me seriously. Cuz this is effecting me a lot. I struggle to stay focused on my schoolwork but I end up overthinking it & I can't focus & before I know it..times up.

I've been told that an anxiety med would probably benefit me...but primary care physician is who prescribed me the buspar & she admits, the psychoactive meds aren't her specific thing which is why it's best to see a psychiatrist cuz it is their's & she knows how long it ends up taking me to see them which is why she's mainly just playing around with what she thnks may be best based on what she knows of my depression history.

but since I'm sure many of you have had experience with other meds...n e suggestions?

as far as meds I have taken are zoloft, lexapro, effexor xr, prozac, celexa & wellbutrin (presently)
& small doses of abilify & seroquel for sleeping.

[SamAE]

these anxiety issues...ive had for...since I was 15 probably. They subside a bit sometimes depending on what's going on with my life. But just since then I've been on all those meds I've listed above. The only REALLY noticeable problem that I've noticed as a result of wellbutrin was my absent mindedness. I feel like my memory has gotten horrible. I feel like the phrases "i forgot" or "i can't remember" are being REALLY overused. But I REALLY can't. I can sit there & try sooo hard but I just can't remember. I've always had memory issues but NEVER this bad. For a while I just shoved it to the side but I think it's effecting me more than I'd like. But I'm afraid of getting off it cuz of how much it has HELPED me too.

I will admit sometimes I go the whole weekend (fri night-sunday night) without taking my wellbutrin & I take it in the am & pm or even sometimes I'll forgot to take it in the morning for a couple days but still take it at night or vice versa.

the thing about this psychiatrist is that they "care" so much that my next appointment was set for 2 months later..not cuz of scheduling cuz that's what he said. He even said "you won't see me very often" the only counseling they offer is group & if social anxiety is one of my issues that doesn't sound like a good start to me

[mammo]

When it comes to  therapists I saw several before feeling comfortable with one.  They were either too analytical, too serious, just not who I felt could help me.  Finally I found one that gave me a good feeling about the whole therapy thing.....my psychiatrist!  He helped me immensely.  I do believe you have to feel comfortable with whomever you are confiding in and exposing your inner most thoughts with.

[MMahon]

Have some symptoms you now have started AFTER you began taking Wellbutrin?
I took it for awhile.  It made me EXTREMELY irritable, angry, and unstable.  I would scream at the television set and curse out people on it.  :-)  It was the Wellbutrin..It stopped when I stopped taking it.
in any case, I've seen 'big' psychiatrists like the one you saw.  I imagine they are ALL the way you described.  HOWEVER, realize there is a 'method to their madness'.  They analyze EVERYTHING you say and do during your visit.  how you walk, shake their hands, how you speak, how you sit, yada yada yada...  These things are important for them to make an adequate assessment.  It takes a couple sessions for this process and you really should see it thru.  These doctors didn't earn the 'bigness' they have by being unsuccessful.
Don't be afraid to act out and demand the help you need.  Their 'bigness' does NOT include mind reading...  
You need a good professional who's going to help  you to find the proper medications and get you where you want to be... It is not however going to happen overnight and you have to stick with someone competent and do what they recommend.
Best of luck to you.