Am I depressed or lazy?

[TimmyVD]

Let me start by saying that I had severe depression in the past. I would throw black sheets over my windows, stay in bed for days on end, I wouldn't do anything...I was totally shut down. No showers, no cleaning, barely eating...I lost about 20lbs. I filed bankruptcy so I wouldn't be thrown out of my apartment, and I quit my job. Looking back, i don't know how I survived because it lasted for a couple of months. I don't know if another episode is on the horizon based on how I've been feeling lately.

It takes me forever to do anything. I can't bring myself to do much, and if I do it's half way done. I don't want to cook, wash dishes, clean...nothing. I can barely go to work. I can't wait until I can go home and lay on my  couch until bedtime which is about 830 or 900pm. Sometimes I'll get a burst of energy and I get some things done, but it doesn't last long at all. I called out of work on Friday and stayed in the house until work for Monday. My husband kept begging me to go out but I wouldn't. I couldn't even get our daughter dressed. It's not as it was in the past but I don't want it to get there either. I'm going to tell my therapist about it, but I dont have an appointment until the end of the week. I'm being treated for anxiety.

Is another major depressive episode coming? If so is there anythign I can do to stop it?

[MJIthewriter]

I think feeling and being unmodivated is part of depression even at the mild to moderate end, which I deal with, I find it hard for me to get things done, even things I want to.

[Hensley258]

I must agree with rliz. Sounds just like clinical depression to me.

You really need to see a doctor, preferibly a Psychiatrist.

Keep us posted.

[TimmyVD]

yes! Thank you....I did nip it last night. I got home, went for a long walk with my husband and daughter. Then I came home cleaned up and made dinner. Feel much better....but still feel it lurking and looming. I am pregnant and I don't want to take anti-depressants right now. I know they are considered safe during pregnancy, but it's not something that I want to do...